freedoom...freedoom...freedoom...
im leadin a happy life now...
muahahahaz...
guess wad...???...lolx
im de ony lil'gal in de house...!
dat elder sis of mine...4 a week
went 2 thailand...wif her boi
(hahar rayer kat thailand)...
while my elder brader...
wherelse he olwes wana hangout 2?
he went 2 his gal house...hehx...
tiz is de life i really WANT...!
muahahahaz...(evil laugh)...
tiz comp is mine...ahahax...
(giler da datang dats y)...lolx
i can do wadevo i wan!
i can get wadevo i wan!
fuuuh...susah dok susah...
susah nak dapat life macam gini.
wehehehz...
ok can b saed dat tiz whole week
i went out...except on saturdae
...penat giler sey...
mon - went Bugis wif QI...
tues - went out wif my MOM...
wed - went bazaar @ woodlands...
thurs - went town...wif QI...
(cineleisure - heeren - hmv - PS)
fri - went Bugis again...
(Kee b'dae...hope she lyks de prezy)
sat - dead tired...(sleepz)...hahar
sun - went Bazaar Geylang Serai...
i need 2 rest sey...
i need 2 enjoy my holidae...!
i need 2 sleepz...
i need 2 dreamz...hahar...
giler ar...feel lyk i dun wan
go skool...i dun wan...
bingit ar...tengok muker
penyangak tu lagik...eee...
okie i ony haf tiz freedom
for ony a week...yeah...
den itz back 2 my miserable life
suxx life...haiz...
listening to metallica ryt now...
de unforgiven...hehx...
it reminds me of old skewl tyme...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
4:56 PM

NOW...im dead tired sey...
listenin 2 greendae...
"wake me up wen puase ends"...
eh...nonono...muahahax..
"wake me up wen september ends"
yesterdae went 2 bugis wif Qi
omg...think i spent alot...
haiz...hahar keepon blame her.
"u lah..aiyee..dun care i buy"
muahahar...
ok letz check wad i bought...
2 tees...omg itz awesome...
a pair of sandal...ermmm...
a pair of shoes...hmmm...
yeah i bought de black 1...
Qi bought de pink 1...heh
goin 2 ask Ming buy de blue
ahahar...
& a bag...wif de letter "Z"
heh..itz stand for "ZAN" okay...
shortened from nOrLiZaN...
den went back home...oh gosh
we breakfast together wif
my bro & sis uzy...heheh...
eating chappati...wif sum kueh
heh in de end im bloated...omg
haiz...den tiz morning
mum ask me go dentist wif her
okay den she felt sooo sick
on de wae home...sooooo...
i went 2 de ntuc buy stuffz
heh..dun think i duno how
2 buy market stuffz kay...
yes ar 2dae breakfast eat
mee hoon goreng...
weheheh...my favrutz...
time check...okok...
left 3 more hours 2 go...
heh..i still can tahan...
ok tata...im goin pray now...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
6:18 AM

currently listenin 2 my paperheart
by all american reject...heh...
got addicted 2 tiz song now...
hahaz...juz love de lyric...
my fren sick & tired wif me
keepon singin on de 1st part...
cuz i dun quite remember in full
"...pls jus dun plae wif me..."
"...my paperheart will bleed..."
hahaz...oh well...tiz fastin month
my patience is really tested...haiz
nvm la...i think i haf 2 be
more patience...thank god...
i neva do anythin stewpid stuffz...
okay...yesterdae breakfast wif my
mum & yeah..dat LoVeLy sista
we ate mee soto..hehe...
done by my mum
fuyooo...syiook sedap giler...
think i kindof
miss my brader now...
hes ony b homed bout
2-3 days a wk...
summore hes busy serving NS...
& servin his galfren...haiz
hahar...still remember
our childhood days...
i keepon followin him...
wherevo he goes...hahar...
cuz me & my sis...
olwes fight...@ home...
hey itz not me who olwes start it k
okie i recall back wad we used 2 do
plae soccer...catchin arnd de block...
catch spider...go ahlong house...
carrem...PS...eat ice-scream...
hahaz..dun b shock if i saed...
yeah i still remember de ah pek face
muahahaz...
omg i really miss de old days...
eee but i h8 it cuz my hair
itz cut short...dun imagine...
yeah my childhood frens r most
guyz..hahar...ony 1 gal...
shes everythin 2 me on dat tyme...
im goin sleep now...
really need 2 enjoy
my holidays...hmmmm...
byieee...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
9:00 PM
lyk hell sey...
she keepon pesterin me sey
but actually she finish
her study long tyme ago sey
den wen i wan 2 use laptop
menyebok ajer...
dier pun nak pakai...
saper yg tak bingit..
u tell me la....
keepon pestering me...
4 about juz half an hour
me pakai...dier da step
ketuk2 pintu mcm la aku ni pekak
pekak badak mcm dier...
bebual mcm orang pekak...
terpekik terlolong...
no respect @ all..
tiz kind of sista
u wan 2 respect...?
bole tangkap relek sua....
irrtitatin sey...
u tell me la...
how 2 study peaceful lyk dat?
damn kan...? cari pasal sey...
org diam2 dier kacau...
bulan posa pulak tu...
saper sey tak bingit...
perangai mcm budak2 padahal
da tuer bangker...
dah tu ambek sweater org
mcm dier punyer gitu...
biler org pakai barang dier
bukan lagi mengater lagi...
but wen she used my stuff
i neva sae anythin tau..
i stil remember sey
wad she calz me
wen suddenly tees dier
my mum terletak kat my almari
de person im talkin bout
is my sister...
i duno wan 2 complain 2 who
so might as well i write...
haiz...omg im cryin...sobzzz.
i ingat sampai mati la
aper yg dier ckp ari tu
padahal i tak pakai pun
baju dier sey...
dier slalu misunderstandin me
i oso duno la...
y she keepon jealous on me...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:13 AM
olwes tell her...
u love her @ all times...
wen she upsets,
hold her tight...
pick her over...
all de oter galz
u hang out wif...
plae wif her hair...
pick her up...
tickle her & wrestle wif her...
juz talk 2 her...
tel her jokes...
bring her flowers juz becoz...
hold her hand...run
jus hold her hand...
throw pebbles...
@ her windows @ nite...
let her fall asleep in ur arms...
sing 2 her...
no matter awful u sound...
get her mad @ u den kizz her...
gif her piggy back rides...
push her on swings...
tell her she lookz beautiful...
wen shes sad,
stay on de phone wif her,
even if shes not sayin anythin...
look in2 her eyes & smile...
kizz her on her 4head...
slow dance wif her...
even if therz no music...
kiss her in de rain...
& wen u fall in love wif her,
tell her...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
7:17 PM
washezoff de beauty creation of GOD
but...wen itz gone...
de rizin of rainbows...
makes it perfect again...
juz lyk our lives...
problemz here & there...
but...happiness stil obtain...
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
ermmm..erk...hmmm...
am i happy...???
nah...nonono...
can be seen dat im happy OLWEZ...
laughin around...but
do i really...hmmm...mean it...?
nah...im not...
i heard my fren sayz..
dun laugh tooo much...
u will cry soon or later...
heh...i didn't noe i believe dat...
hahaz...but itz true sumtymez...cuz
it happenz to me...haiz...
i need 2 cry u c...
itz 1 wae of me lettin go wadevo
i bottled up inside...
de best wae...rather den...
hurtin urself...which i used 2...
heex...plz dun scold me of dat...
since young...i juz love 2...
bottled up anythin which im...
not happy or satisfy...but
4 how long shud i...
juz keep everythin ryt...?
tell oter peepz...oso no use...
cuz dey will get tired of u...
olwes complainin de same thing...
hurtin urself...oso no use...
cuz u r de 1 who is in pain...
writing....???...hmmm...
i've got simply no idea...
cryin...i will juz cry out loud
in my sleepless nyte...
i think itz betta...cuz
no1 will hear dat u r cryin...heh...
hmmmm...
juz lyk de fallin of rain...
tears keepon rollin...
lettin go wadevo i feel inside...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
3:46 PM
2 tops & a skirt...
heh...happy wif dat...
& @ last i bought beads & anklet...
skool gonna start in 3 wkz tyme...
omg...felt dat 'break' is soo short...
yeah need 2 rest myself...
b4 im back 2 my suxx life...
de most important thing...heh...
need 2 enjoy...yea enjoy sleepin...
dun disturb my dream world...
talkin bout results...
frenz of mine...got in2 supp...
juz hope he did well...&
do as best as he can...
gd luck dude...pray 4 u...
juz 4 de cert sake...heh...
i noe he can do...but...
sumting is not ryt wif him...
haiz...2 think again...
he's de 1 shud quit skewl...not me
stil remember...he cals me dumb...
wen i saed wana quit skool..heh...
keepon tellin me dun b stewpid...
juz becoz of sum stewpid stuffz...
yeah..i noe im dumb & stewpid...
but sumtingz i juz can't keep it...
any longer...thingz dat makes me...
can't study in "...PEACE..." ...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
5:40 PM
heh...i noe dat...but...
still love de previouz 1...i'll think...
juz found tiz new skin bit...
special...unique...heh...itz a book...
heh...muz thankz 2 dat khairul...
hes simply gothic...metal...coolz...
i mean...all of his blogskinz yea...
nobody's home is on de air now...
duno y...juz love dat song...
listen 2 de lyrickz...hmmm...
rejected...blablabla...lost inside...
"we r young & lost...& so afraid"
"we r strong & bless...& so brave?"
im not strong & brave enuff...
2 face each dae...i need blessingz...
im young & afraid...
2 face dem...cuz im lost...
felt dat every1 pushin thinz 2 me
poitin fingerz ryt under my nose...
no use of me...
cryin in my sleepless nyte...
cuz dey wont noe dat...im...
...cryin...hurt...in pain...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
3:48 AM
it hurts me really damn bad...
my heart...my soul...
i sacrifice everytin...
im not scared of death...
nor afraid of love...
1 dae u wake up...found me dead...
u juz dun b afraid...
cuz life doesn't mean anyting...
cuz love doesn't exist...
cuz he won't understand me...
it has been written..
it has been saed...
juz dun wait 4 me...
juz 4get bout everytin...
juz keep goin of ur new life...
i will b olwez lyk tiz...
4evo & evo...
dun turn back...
dun look back...
dun evo call out my name...
cuz i won't turn...
turnin back 2 u...
cuz i won't die...
dyin for ur love...
cuz i will wait...
keepon waitin 4 new life...
tiz is juz me...& de ony me...
.....de pariahgal.....
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
12:34 PM
& yeah thank god...
(syukur alhamdulilah)...
yeah i pass...heh...
i noe itz lyk quite a bad result...
but so wad ryt...?
i dun care much bout grades...
as long as i pass...
at least i did try my best...
alto i feel fuck'd up...
durin de exxxamz period...
juz wana thankz to...
my frens & buddiez
(u shud noe who u r
cuz i really need dat kind of peepz)
4 givin me encourage...
dat actually i can do...
(which i tot of
quitin skool recently)...
wadevo...thankz yeah peepz...
juz 4 dat cert sake...
haiz..ol de best 4 oterz...
skool gonna re-open
bout few wkz tyme...
haiz...& itz back 2 my sux life...
nobody's home song
still on de air wen i post tiz...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
8:20 AM
im not updatin tiz blog thingy ryt...
haiz...so howz my new blogskin...???...
wohooh i lurve it...simply gothic...
juz reflectz how my life is...
life wif full of...nah...
not goin to type out thoz stuffz
cuz its fastin month...yeargh i noe...
i do respect...yeargh...
but sum peepz juz dun
respect it @ all...
dun understand why...yes...
dey saed yeargh im fastin...
but de fact dat dey dun even noe
wads de meanin 2 fast...
dey juz avoid eatin & drinkin...
but dey didn't even change 'emself...
haiz...no use ryt...???...
fastin month cumin...yes...
dey do look good but
after dat respectful month,
neva change their stewpid habit...
4 wad ryt...???...
y am i sayin ol tiz stuff...??...
cuz i haf 2 face...
wif tiz kind of peepz around me
...me got no choice...
dey will 4evo b de same...
no use in trustin tiz kind of peepz...
i juz lost faith wif dem...
dey can toOt off...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
2:33 PM
