tertiaryConcessionOfficiallyEnds2Dae
pharkItLahKan!KaninaLahSiol.GREAT!!!
&RejectThatFreakynJobB4AnytynHappen.
...imTotallyLOST...
i hate wakin up in de mornin.
it seems flashyn back.
ok maybe im thinkin too much.
rightClickDelete.ok im done!
i took this pix...coz im bored.
& it reminds me of my skewl Life.
& i think i MISS my skewl Life.
i miss hangout wif EM3galz (tho'imInEM2).
i miss playin soccer wif ex512galz.
i miss chillyn @ NYP mac wif 09galz.
i miss my skewl life man.
ok im gettyn emo! SO - WAD?
i look purfectly fine but...
sumtynIsWrongwifMe...
&ItDidn't...
ChangeMyLife.
if only i could turn back tyme
i'll juz run away!
damn, it's too late.
************
listenin to:
A Stroke Of Luck - Garbage
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
10:53 PM
im a VERY BAD gal!
im a PARANOIA!
im a FREAK!
im PATHETIC!
im USELESS!
im krazy!
im mad!
im insane!
im stewpid!
im DUMB!
wad she says is right.
im gona CRY over it somedae.
YES i am...
juz let these tears flow...
shamima i really feel lyk wana
...hug u ryt NOW...
i feel damn useless...
i should have juz listen to u instead.
i noe im stewpid. DUMB.
everyone hates me...
lookin sooo dissatisfied...
& de crowd pushes me away...
i neva knew wad it was lyk...
til i realise it now...
& I PHARKYN HATE IT...
erase those memories.
itz killyn me.
ok shut up! juz let me cry...
& so my heart could make another beat.
************
listenin to:
in pieces - Lp
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
2:01 AM
(EnterNamesHere) pissed me off...
juz feel lyk wana cry...
but i can't...
de tears juz won't come out!
...hurtz...
thanks ALOT! perangai mcm siak!
pick on me...lyk there's no one else!
im lost...
duno wad de hell i wana do sey.
applied this job...went for interview...
it sounds ermmm FINE...coz no coding!
but den im hoping not to be selected.
pharkyn hate this feelin siak.
tooo afraid it doesn't suit me man.
ok maybe juz try...no harm aite?...haiz.
everyone makes mistake btw...
freakyn!!!!
brain damage...
cant even think...
when will i evo think wise?
and act like a real adult?...
man i sound sooo pathetic siol.
dun even noe i cud evo reach my dreamz
or izit it will remain as dreamz?
*CRAPZ*
let me lost in my own world.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
4:56 PM
YEAY da 300th entry!
ok so wadz wif de yeay 4?
so, got many many many pix
foooooooooooooooor todae!!!
enjoy those pix...
after been many entries no pix!
laz saturday...
hangout with poly clique!
the typical 4 of us hehe!



seafood platter & new york fish&chip
close up! close up!


i juz love playin wif anglez.



before went to catch movie.
& so me & her playin around wif shades
in de end didn't buy them LOLX!
notice de 2 ladies @ background. haha
lookin @ shrlene
lookin @ kee
lookin @ me
i lookin @ azsimah.
i found it damn funny lah.
suppose to be EMO pix! LOLX.
@ so we cracked up some jokes!
start with azsimah.
sooo concentrate HAHAHA!!!!


ok she saw me take candid pix!
showin some power huh?
hahahaha...ok im jokin aite.
weeeeeeeeeeeeeee
hangout again okie???
tuesday...
p/t ceramic lion promoter/seller!
hehe...@ this CCK pri sch...
those kidz are soooo CUTE man!!!
only 5 - 6 kiddoz called us aunty!
ok thanks yeah...
exchanged msn wth and took pix! HAHAR.
ok coz im damn bored la ryt...
this is called multi-taskin okayz hehe.
galz toylert.
lurve de lightz man hehe.
ok the sink is at my thighs level.
so i have to ermmm bend down!.
our display!!!
& this BOY shout from his seat
abt the price and desc of de LION!!!
grrrrr RAWR wooof woof...
ok wads wif de woof man!!!
julia says she looks innocent.
YESSS she isssss!!!! sooo cute!
dat dude on de right...
broke his lion and ask 4 change!
grrrrr NO!!!...
YES we exchange msn!
they entertain us man.
hehe & she thinks im 18/19.
weeeeee im FLYING !!!
de gal in de middle...
she's frenly man...
cutie twinx i found!!!
damnz itz blurr...
that boi...
gangster in de school. LOLX.
im LMAO la can???
wad a day man!!!
our tired + hungry + urgent faces!
today...
interview was fine. hehe.
if i were to be shortlisted,
they'll call in 2 - 3 days tyme.
it's quite distant man.
so it took me 45 mins to...
write my resume & do this paper.
i feel like taking TEST sia.
ok la it's not bad afterall...
& im hopin not selected. LOLX.
done wif those resume & stuffz
i'm bored in de room alone sooo...
...cam-whoryn...hahahhar.
ok im mad! yah dun haf to tel me.



ok im done!!!
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:58 PM
pain on top of my butt.
or it arse?...HURTZ.
itz been week.
walk lyk a pregnant lady!
& didn't go for message.
coz i'm thinkin...
dun lyk the idea of bare-in my back!
i hate it.
saturdae!
foursome hangout...
lunch @ fish&co...
movie was okay lah...
chillyn @ mac...
had a great laugh man!
miss those days we chillyn @ nyp mac.
& cam-whoryn !!!!! LOLX.
lazy to upload...oter tyme den. hehe.
great future ahead ladies!
miss you all man. hangout wen we're free!
temp job in pri sch on tuesdae.
@ cck! DAMNZ. -.- FREAK!
now i get freak when c de word
BP or gnallak!...freak freak freak!
interview on wednesdae.
crossyn my fingers. itz gonabe FINE.
plz god i NEED monaye!...
ok.
im done.im tired.im sick of it.
no more boifrens talkyn.
i need real BREAK.
for a moment.
im sooo different.
it makes me feel lyk some1else.
suddenly i 4gotten who am i sia.
galfrens still de best.
thank you.
i want back de real me.
de crappy me.
de gilerr me.
de blurry me.
my insides all turned to ash
sooo slow.
************
listenin to:
beautyful gal - sean kingston
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
7:06 PM
to post this entry for 10 minz.
life gettyn busy...
sleepyn late & wakeup late.
hangout wif twinx in afternoon
chillin wif online chattyz @ nyte
juz know thiz lady in radio.
i lyk her...great chattyn wif her.
she's wild,mad,crazy,chatty,crappy
juz lyk me... i loike!...
she makes me excited & lmao all de tyme.
who is she sia...LOLX.
thanks for makyn me happy...s-u-f-i-n-a!
got thiz 2 dayz job...thanks j-u-l-i-a!
monaye! i nid monayes!
MORE monayes WOOHOOHOO.
but im juz lazy to get myself
a freakyn JOB...
wednesdae lappy goin insane.
it's totally freaked me out.
oredy backup stuffz thank G-O-D!
ok im done...
& im gone...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:50 AM
speakyn a 2 or 3...
i get mad and so let's see
wad de phark wif de previous entry?
dun ask me y if u ever read.
1 shot 2 shot...
feel like wana make some gunshot
i dun give a fark...
if u dun believe in me wtf...
as if juz born yesterdae...
i neva knew wad love izit anywae...
tryna playin around wif me?
retarded! i wish he's not born anywae
outta my mind 4 de very 1st tyme...
freakynout!!! lala-tralala...
act like nottyn happened...
bla-bla-humbili-humbla...
freakynstripper? used to be his nick
freakynmoron u gotta short arsedick!
try other gals & so let's see...
never knew how stewpid i can be
call me names if dats gonabe
wadevo it is i m not a farken BITCH
1 2 and 3...i am sooo dead beat.
i think its better to be a FREAK!
freakynlesboz? guess dats wad im gonabe
if u evo do believe in me
im not wad u really see...
sweetly smiling decent nonsence
freakynLOSER! shout as loud as u can be.
u're a fuckin' cokein' slut...
i hope u fuckin' die...
i hope u get to hell...
& Satan sticks a needle in ur eye
i hate your fuckin' guts...
u fuckin' slut...i hope you die
Di-ii-ii-ii-ii-ii-ie !!!
but please dun get me wrong...
i'm not bitter or mad
it's not dat i still love you...
it's not coz i wan u back...
it's just dat wen i think of u...
it makes me wanna yak..
yaa-aa-aa-aa-aa-aa-ag...
wad else can i do, i haven't got a clue
now i guess i'll just move on...
i have no choice but to...
but everytyme i think of u now...
i'll wana do is
pu-uu-uu-uu-uu-uu-uke...
i've delete those stuffs...
& i am sooo damn happy wif it.
so many things i've went thru...
...wad a life man...
not another one...
guess she said its true...
i need a break man...
til im back like used to.
************
listenin to:
8 mile - Eminem
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
7:27 PM
Dun wana haf any boifrens...
dun understand bout having a boifren.
Dun understand MAN...
dun get it wad actually they want!
i dun pharkyn understand la siol!
wad de phark im thinkin ryt now,
they juz want one thing...
...pharker cheeebye!!!...
1stly...
why should i pharkyn care?
he's NOT even my pharkyn boifren
in de first place aite...
sickenin muthafarker cheebye!!!
when i SAY..."I don't want"
i mean it seriously i DON'T WANT!
dun pharkyn understand simple ENGLISH!
or even i said it in my own language!!!
wad de phark is wrong man !!!
i juz dun pharkyn get it la siol...
all i can say...
they are totally FREAKYN ME OUT...
they make me felt IRRITATED...
annoyed,shocked,scared,afraid,freakOUT.
and one more thing...
they are tooo rushyn...
take things easy lah dude...
wadz there to rush la kan?
it takes tyme by the wae...
& im a NONONO freakyn-BITCH...
who can sleep with...
after been chat for like 4-5 hours!
who the phark he thinks i am siaaak!!!
im not a pharkyn BITCH by de wae!
sooo freakyn-pharkyn-desperate...
get urself a lady, get married...
& doing it...& get lotsa babies!!!
& i dun get lured by ur muthapharkyn
...* freakyn-sweet-werds *...
(rollyn my eyes)...
im tooo afraid the feeling fades away...
gimme some decent guy can???
enuff with those shitz...
i've overcome it, SERIOUSLY!!!
wasted with a stranger...
...* freakynstripper! *...
scarz of life...
stop all the miserable pls.
************
listenin to:
dua insan bercinta - ella&amy
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
7:19 PM
when talks about LOVE
i dun wana make it...
i juz wan it...
if u ever felt ...alone....
if u ever felt ...rejected...
if u ever felt ...confused...
if u ever felt ...lost...
if u ever felt ...anxious...
if u ever felt ...wronged...
if u ever felt ...unclean...
if u ever felt ...angry...
if u ever felt ...ashamed...
if u ever felt ...curious...
i'm okay!
seriously, i'm okay now...
but u really nid 2 listen 2 me
coz i'm telling de truth
i mean this...
i'm okay! ...trust me...
if u ever felt ...used...
be prepared to feel revenge...
...feel the romance...
my brutal romance...
my beautyful romance...
my miserable romance...
my x-rated romance...
my harlequin romance...
my innocent romance...
my childish romance...
my sweet romance...
my hurtful romance...
my chemical romance...
i'm not okay!
well, i'm not okay...
i'm not o-fucking-kay...
i'm not okay ...okay...
************
listenin to:
i'm not ok (i promise) - MCR
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
5:15 PM
u make me pharkyn sick 2 my stomach
everytyme i think of u, I PUKE
u muz juz not noe...
u may not think u do, but you do
everytyme i think of u, I PUKE...
chillyn @ Bugis starbux...
talkyn,crappyn,laughyn...
lurve de environment man.
had a great chat wif her...
nicex talkyn bout *everything* to her.
exchanged views,opinions,excitement.
mostly it's EVERYTHYNG...
from startyn till the end...
and all de while...
we ended up laughyn our arse off!!!
i duno wadz my feeling man.
...mixed feelyn...
scared,freakedOut,funny,shocked,
excited,paranoid,trauma,sad? ENJOYIN?
i dun even noe i shud cry over it onot
wen i think bout it, it's damn FUNNY!
i shouldn't talk about it...
coz it's kind of ermmm not nice to tell.
avoidin me...as if i pharkyn care!!!
holla me if u still have a pharkyn DICK!
i didn't lose anythyn instead man.
*im still a VERGETARIAN*
- ifUgetWadIsae
shame on ur pharkyn self man.
callyn urself a MAN?
u sucha pharkyn BITCH wif hairy pussy
SWEAR to GOD im laughyn my arse off...
whenevo i think about it siak.
may GOD 4give you man. AMIN.
so it took me 35 hours to overcome it.
how great...muahahahaha.
PIZZAHUT tomorrow wif de twinx!!!
no more stoning for me...
lost in my own world instead pwease...
im strong on de surface...
not all de wae through...
i've never been perfect...
but neither have you...
************
listenin to:
PUKE - EMINEM
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
3:51 AM
...yesterday...
I did sumtyn stewpid...
which I never do...
in my whole entire life before.
& I've been stoning the whole day.
...today...
i juz need sumbody to talk to.
i dun feel like wana do anything.
besides, stoning & stoning...
i've gone mad sey...GILERRRR.
i think...
it's better to be a LOSER instead.
listenin to:
leave out All The Rest - Linkin Park
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
12:12 PM
Was blastyn my ear drums...
with all those PUNK RAWK sonkz!
how great is that...
eminem's rap juz makes me...
lost into my own world man.
(rap thiz up.)
bitch, naive, guilty conscience,
innocence lil freakar...kentalan
call me names...palapufukifiz...
wadevo there's exist in de dictionaries
say it proudly...say it ryt...
phark those bitchez which i used to sae
can't believe myself wad i did 2dae...
wads on my mind??? to have a good tyme?
as if i did it proudly like some bitchy!
moronard? fertard? punktard? retard?
again i said wad de phark i did 2dae!
im NOT a pharkyn biatch...
& i'm saying it proudly...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
5:35 PM
SOOOOO many things happened siol.
...what a freakyn day sia...
again...running nose attack me!!!
pharkyn hate it man...
it's like every 2 weekz...
i would be attacked by running nose
...dammit man...
for the 1st tyme...
chilling @ wisma starbuckz...
OMG...THANKZ bro !!!
SFC supervisor called...
while i'm tryin on topz...LOLX.
sooo paisey siol...hahahar...
goin back...hopefully...
...* prayin hard *...
it'z not beyond my ability.
juz like any other stories...
yayayayayaya...AGAIN...
makes me excited for nothyn man.
he freaks me out siol...
what on earth la kan...
after made me guilty den wads next???
wad de phark he thinks i am siak?
ok maybe i think too much...
orrr...hmmm...i'm juz a freakar???
gets pharkyn freakout sooo easily.
wad she says is true...
& there it goes...miss the chance.
u dun have to know...
promised me the sky...
toss me like a stone...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
10:38 PM
sumtymes i think...
im a big pharkyn LOSER
at a certain moment...
i felt im sucha FREAKA
tend to let others SPEAK
then defending myself
wadz de point of me sayin?
no one's gona believe me though
& no one's gona listen to me.
big pharkyn stoner.
i was out of my mind...
i was not being myself...
i saw a different side of me.
that's not the real me.
dun wana be different to be famous.
it'z too bad la kan...
im not bitchy type.
& the story goes...
i hate SinTheRailer...
im SleepynFugly...
again again again...
i lurve the excitement.
ok which step did i miss?
orrr maybe i should ...
nevermind forget it !!!
pretendin someone could save me.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
6:21 PM
I lurve my SATURDAY.
how i wish everydae is lyk THIS.
lazying around @ HOME...
sleep for long hours...
(wakeup to be sumbodyelse instead.)
watch teevee & lappy feels lyk MINE.
sumtymes i think...
life is too short to get pissed
& paranoid all the tyme...
think about yesterday...
when we had fun...
i know it won't be long...
thanks for the fun...
stare @ these four walls again...
feelyn wasted with a stranger.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
7:36 PM
WARNING : LONG POST
I've been wastyn my monay...
Shoppyn is really damn tiryn.
Spendyn many hours wif de TWINX...
before they started UNI in august.
I NEEEEED a long breakz pwease.
It has been a week i've left SFC.
Kind of miss the...erm...EVERYTHYN.
Huntyn job next few weekz or months?
Graduation...
OK previous post,
it was bloody short entry. LOLX.
The Graduation was TIRING...
My feelings on that meaningful day...
morning: angry,irritated,frustrated
early in de damn mornin...
dad finds trouble with me! THANKS.
b4Ceremony: bored,nervous,excited
Speeches makes me bored...
Goin up de stage makes me nervous...
Can't wait for everything to end.
Pictures,Cert,Receptions & many pix.
Thanks to my bangla(bro) 4 de pix
dat makes me look like a chubby donut.
& my SE K618i dat makes many pix of me
look like a scarynigga... -.-
afterCeremony: tiring,bloated,sleepy
Was runnyn about till i sweat lyk HELL
thanks to de hand-dryer...LOLX.
Went to Seoul Garden @ CP 4 Lunch Buffet
with bro,mum,dad & de twinx...
THANKS dad for the treat.
I was damn sleepy on dat day man.
So dat bangla bro has calculated...
that FreakynFugly cert cost...
with an inclusion of...
my patiencez,cryinz,laughterz,
madnezz,boredom & crapnezz, it costs
...* freakyn S$27,000.00 *...(izit?)
oh my my my my GAWD!!!
Sooo nicex to see all of them.
How i wish you two were there.
Sooo roughly...
how i spent my 3 yrs @ nyp.
First Year...
Loser loser loser...
Smangat like kentalbabiz...
I was dumb & live lyka freakar.
Start to hate life...
Projectz & Presentationz
guess it was fine...(izit?)
Second Year...
Life's gettyn MORE & MORE pathetic.
We moving out & it's a total pissed.
Assignments,EXAMZ,projects&presentationz
...driving me NUTZ...
Had great laughters & crapz...
& few conflicts with clique...
but we still frenz...
forgive & forget, it do werks!
Third Year...
...TEP...
1st stopover: EMRS
IT WAS A PHARKYN NITEMARE!!!
...K.N.N.C.C.B...
Was teamed with Biz people
& i was alone...i mean among 09.
I don't pharkyn care i wana confessed!
My pharkyn bitch LEADER is such a
pharkyn bitchy ARSEWHOLE!!!
obviously she looks down on BI...
THANKS ALOT for her COMPLIMENTS
regardyn our freakyn idea presention.
you juz wasted 15 minutes of ur life
& 59834857394020 of ur pharkyn words.
YOU CAN KISS MY PHARKYN ARSE BITCH !!!
attention-seeker who thinks she's CUTE?
i juz feel like wana PUKE la BITCH!!!
wastyn my entry space only...
talkin bout her...WASTYN TYME !!!
& to dat dude in my team...thanks...
2nd stopover: BSU
IT WAS A SLACKYN TYME!!!
I lurve my team man...
it was damn pharkyn DIFFERENT sia
compare to the 1st stopover
...cheebye sia...
i created the team website.
guess they love it lah okie...
the great BIZ members i evo met.
we cam-whoryn like hell duryn BSU tyme
...IPP...
Attached to SCS...
to my shocked...together with AZSIMAH!
was located @ MAH wif errr RETARD!!!
I get pissed & paranoid everydae...
big pharkyn retarded slacka...
late-comer & free-ryder... -.-
wadevo itz over...
yah dats all...\m/
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
3:47 AM

to DBI0409:
all de best & good luckz !!!
c ya people around...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:59 PM
i'm gonna start my entry with
YAAAAAWWWWWNNNNNZZZZZ...
wakeup around 11...
ON de lappy checkin stuffz.
Wash myself by 1...
and back to de lappy again...
until now...bloggyn.
wads so good to be like me?
i'm not like her...
being admired...adored...
respected...wanted...loved...
by most of people...
becoz of what???
she's beautyful...pretty...cutie...
(with my eyes rolling)
she told me bout him...
it was interestyn initially.
it's gettyn more & more excited
as they get to know each other.
but it longed for 3-4 months...
he left her...
for another pretty-lady.
deeply-pharkyn-hurt...
"history repeats, emy..."
"juz wad de pharkyn wrong???"
"been dumped 3 tymes..."
"i juz hate being beautyful..."
"MAN! they juz wan our body!"
"how i wish to be like you."
COME ON LAAAAAAAAAAA !!!
it's juz pharkyn stewpid 2 b lyk me.
& not all MAN got such attitude la gal
waityn & waityn...waityn fer notyn...
to her...
it'z notyn wrong to be beautyful or fugly.
a guy will accept fer who u r...
dats a truthful guy who wana b wif u.
otherwise...juz 4get it...
like i said before la kan...
*have to kiss many frogs*
*to get a perfect snog*.
i'm out of words...
when it comes to this paragraph.
i juz murder the alphabets.
Let nature takes it's course.
i can't simply type anything.
becoz i'm...kind of a lil'out of faith.
tell me i'm beautyful...
juz by lookin in my heart...
that's enough.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
10:42 PM
