
so itz lyk...
lappy's back to normal.
my bro shud b proud of me.
nyehehehe...
tak sia-sia blaja BizIT.
yah wadevo.
thanks kee!!!
yah i noe...
"reformat many tymez"
"boleh rosak u noe...". lolx.
canot help it lah. damnz.
we havin nitemares!!!
haiz. seemz lyk...
we couldn't let go
our anger in reality,
it happened in da fantasy.
...damnz...
*i hate u even more*
i juz dun wana c u.
or even look at u.
cuz i duno wad 2 sae.
it seemz lyk...
im being hypocryte if evo
fakin it...u noe. damnz.
tryin 2 avoid...if i could.
i feel soo dumb... lolx.
i need to change... do i?
wadevo.
where's da man...
who has gut to *talk 2 me*
huh? huh? huh?...lolx.
tired of waitin...
make it stop please.
...*cOnDeMnEd*...
Da background song...
doesn't related @ all.
YES! im tellin da truth.
y shud i lie???...
************
listenin to:
dats y u go away - MLTR
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
3:13 AM
wad a lovely week i haf.
i feel kindof weird.
cuz of my hair. DAMNZ.
sucha freaky weird. weirdo.
tryin 2 b gothic.
yah Da'Rejected ones. LOLX.
ok dead...
my comp is crashed...
itz laggin...
bro ask to reformat.
yah itz easy to say...
...damnz...
so not gona blog tiz few days cuz
fixin tiz lovely lappy of my bro.
*ant bully* was great...& & &...
*love wrecked* was awesome...
i laughin my ass off
on 1 part of it...
& i forgotten which. DAMNZ.
yah i noe i keepon sayin *damnz*.
...DAMNZ...hahar...i noe not funny.
juz laugh can?... omg.
RATING
ant bully -> 7/10
love wrecked -> 8/10
currently addicted to *spicy tuna sushi*
urgh...wad a temptation. weird.
im really nid 2 enjoy my break
b4 TEP...& start 2 get busy...
i hate stayin faraway from skewl.
nvm i used to it since 6 years ago.
wadevo. THANKS daddy i <3 u. crapz.
yah i got c...so wad?
*u* juz dun open ur mouth & sae
"yah, dats her..."
i beg u...paiseh la. LOLX.
i go & c doesn't mean...
i like him okay. lolx...
tryin-2-play-some-krazy-game.
but-im-not-kindof-serious.
yah im crappin.
i hope *my giler* get it.
oh i heart *my giler* very THIS
much.
************
listenin to:
call me wen u sober - evanescence
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
2:48 AM
warning!!! tiz gonabe BORING post!!!
feel lyk livin in a ZOO.
monkeyz being jumpin around
mutha tarzan shoutin
whole farkin day...im livin in a farkin JUNGLE!!!
well well well...
1 week break...
hmmmm...
I JUZ DUN WAN SIT @ HOME!!!
i mean...ZOO!!!...
da week end...
itz great...
after-soo-long-didn't-hangout...
i juz love my twinxx...fren...
i really wana hangout wif SHAM!!!
more picz!!!...plz...lolx...
after 8 whole month...
went back *home* 4 awhile.
saw my room...
feel lyk wana cry.
feel lyk wana sit & grab my
favrut couch (i olwez used 2 sit)
& cried "i dun wana go! i dun wana go!"
hahar...but itz juz my imagination.
10-15 minutes later,
went off wif my broken heart.
dragged my legs along da corridor.
turned & looked @ da house
4 da laz tyme.
deep inside...
"im not gonna let it away."
"i will fight 4 it no matter wad."
really nid a life man.
dun wan b 4evo lyk tiz.
wana changed.
wanabe sumone.
wan 2 proof dat...i...i...i
i can DO wad i evo wanted 2 do...
i juz dun wanabe some
typical malay girls...
graduate...den work...den havin boifren
den...married...den...stays @ home,
produce babies &
looking after da family...
itz juz dat...*NO LIFE SEY*...
i wanabe *sumone*...*sumbody*...u noe.
i dun wanabe lyk dem...
i juz dun wan my children...ekhem...
to go thru wadevo shits i went thru.
i really nid farkin life lah...
juz hope i could achieve it...
wadevo shitz happened...
i will bottled up everything...
& learnt from it...
*itz juz me*...
caring bout oterz feeling den mine.
sooo afraid if i hurt their feelings.
i can't change lah.
4evo i wud b da same.
************
listenin to:
call me wen u're sober - evanescence
(thanks honey-beth!)
now im addicted 2 tiz sonk!
lolx itz nice la
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
10:45 PM

hahas...this is da...
*laz dae in biz lect*...
yah we used to cam-whorin
especially waitin 4 class @ 5
...*supply chain*...every thurs.
im gonna miss da moments
*photo-takin-wif-dem*...
& those biz side...
ok freak TEP briefin *4th SEPT* @ LTL3.
830 ??? OMG...
i really nid to wakeup very EARLY!...
...hmmmmmm...
help me sumbody...LOLX...
yeay!!!
tmr Qi laz paper!!!...
sooooooo...
*chillin tyme*!!!...
sushi! sushi! sushi!...
bladin! bladin! bladin!...
movies! movies! movies!...
slackin! slackin! slackin!...
...LOLX...
please 4give me...
im toooooo happy lah.
even Qi&Ming h8 their...
...*elder sis*...LOLX...
im not da ony one...
if u ask me a wish dat
i evo wanted...
"how i wish i dun haf any sis."
nobody wud evo understands
wadevo i went thru...
wadevo she has done...
...*2 me 4 da past 20 yrs*...
yah minus 5 years cuz
im too young 2 evo remember stuffz...
************
listenin to:
my paper heart - all american reject.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
3:02 AM
juz wana thanks
*honey,kc&fm*...
ermmm...4...everything
...laz nyte...
brain seemz damage...
i juz duno where da fark 2 study.
@ home seems lyk farkin shitz.
da shoutinz, da noise,
da tornados, & all those shitz
i juz pack my stuff, get changed
& out im goin off...
@ beth's place,
it simply juz reminds me
of my own room...
*da peace*...omg...
i miss my room sooo deeply.
hey honey, thankz 4 everything *hugs*EXAMZZZ DONE!!! yeay...

i did quite OK 4 biz paper...
i did quite BAD 4 IT paper...
...lyk olwez...
wadevo it is, itz over
plz GOD, i dun wana flunk my IT paper.
in great need of sleep...
b4 ISECA paper...omg
i threw up lyk shits...damnz
juz duno wad da fark is wrong wif me.
i keep on vomittin...haiz...wtf sey.
& 4 da 1st tyme evo,
believe it onot...
i did da ISECA paper for 45mins...
den out im goin off...lolx.
i juz can't stand it la...
cuz i nid to vomit!!!
after all,
now den u notice...
who is ur true friend...
omg...wen i evo think bout it again
or see da person again...
it juz makes me puke...&
wana threw up even more...
************
listenin to:
forgive me - evanescence
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:08 PM
i suppose *no NOISE* in da lib
retarded mofos...
it was full house...
Mac is simply no difference @ all
to get my brains werkin
for the farkin lovely *ISECA* ppr.
so me & qi...
"tmr cum early la..."
"yah...eat breakfirst den go lib"
i was lyk...weeee...hahar...
& its gonabe around 9 - 10...hehx
had a good talk wif mum
in tiz kindof situation,
i nid sum1 to talk
& i guess mum is da best
i let go everything to her bout
*my studies*
*missing our home*
*da monstas & their headmaster*
*dad's stuffz*
...haiz...
& mum agreed to psycho dad
in not to continue stay here.
hee i love u mum...
i juz duno wad to do...
simply none in da family
understands da situation
besides me & mum...
how i wish...
i cud help dad & mum...
but...i really nid
to get start from da bottom.
oh god,
hope u listenin to me.
i juz wish...
i cud make my parents happy
w/o any problemz & conflicts...
& wana werk really hard
juz for dem...& myself...
all i want
is our home & family
dat i miss 8 months back...
i promise 2 b ur lil'gal 4evo
& i try to do wadevo u sae
i will behave dad...mom...
i will listen to my brader
& i will b da 1 giveup
wenevo my sis wana fight wif me.
haiz...life is soo tough
& i learnt da hard wae...
how bad or evol my family is
i ony have thiz 1 lovely family.
though since young
i olwez feel hatred towards my dad & sis
but i guess...
no 1 is perfect though...
theres bad & good stuff...
so i juz nid to bottle things up.
freeeeeedoooommmm...
wooooo...i juz love being *single*
weeeee....or shall i sae...
...*im a lesbo*...lolx...
good farkin BYE dude...hahar...
i noe u juz usin me...
...wadevo...
************
missing - evanescence
(thanks bethia *honey* 4 tiz song)
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
2:30 AM
it was at faulty laz nite
it really makes me mad
i get to fix it by myself
tiz morning...& yah...DONE
yeay...weeeeee....
yah i noe crapz.
simply lazy to post but...
since can be surf so...
i checked all my stuffz...hehx.
i read my tag...
juz lyk any oter dae.
latest post was sham...
so i went to her blog & read.
it really makes me freakin worried.
sham...
i noe...though we didn't meetup
juz lyk any oter of ur galfrens...
but i do really understand ur feelings
how hurtful u were &
how pain it was...
i don't really noe wad happen
to both of u...but as a fren
& i mean a more-den-10-yrs-fren
dats y i really do care bout u.
im not kaypo-ing...
itz juz dat im care
bout my frens feelings.
wen u hurt...
as if i felt da hurt too...
but i noe urs is much more worst
den wad i felt...ryt?
cum on sham...
i noe u r strong & tough...
im not olwez there
wen u in nid of help...
but u can olwez *talk to me*
anytyme & anywhere sham...
sooo...
wen u felt better...
& wana talk to sum1,
juz give me a cal ok
i will olwez b there 4 u
though i haven bath...
hahaha...
ok juz wana make u smile.
i noe...crapz...LOLX...
sham my giler...
u olwez b my giler ok...
...love u...
...hugz&kissez...
*minah gangsta*
...ur giler...
nOrLiZaN
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
5:40 PM
im juz purely lazy to study
hmmmm...
though itz ony 2 freakin paper...
good luckz everyone.
wen results out,
hope u(free rider) fail suckaz
m i bad fren?...
m i bad galfren?...
m i bad daughter?...
m i bad sista?...
im sucha bad bad gal...
no 1 perfect ryt?
everyone do make mistakes.
i hate myself...
i hate everyone around me...
im *fat*...im *fugly*...
my hair *stinkz*...my BO *suxxx*.
i dun haf style lah...
juz go away from me...
im not lyk oter gal out ther' &
im not a nice gal 4 u.
theres better gal out ther'
dat cud satisfy u...
...haiz...
i've got nothing...simply *NONE*
shes much beautiful den me...
shes much smarter & clever den me...
she knows how 2 take care of u unlike me
she knows how 2 give love to u unlike me
shes got everything...not lyk me...
da ony thing she doesn't has
da heart dat i have...
juz go away la dude...
get out of my life...
i dun wana talk bout u anymore
juz wasting my entry post...
...haiz...
damnz im farkin hate u sey...
fine...
i will start to hate u...
i thought u were da 1...
guess im wrong...
my fairy god-mutha lie to me
i nid a new 1...next plz...
nvm i used to it...
living alone & being single.
theres nothin wrong ryt?
i oredy lost faith.
...da'Loser...
************
everybody's fool - evanescence
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
1:32 AM
ok i oredy settle thingz
...NOW...
i juz dun give a fark...
i will start 4get bout U...
i will bottle things up...
i try 2 4get wadevo shitz happened
nobody do really understand me.
nobody do really care bout me.
love is nothing...
freedom has vanish...
i can go mad wif tiz life.
wif my skewl life lyk dat.
wif my family life lyk tiz.
while no one evo care bout me.
i will juz keep everything 2 myself.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
2:03 PM
heee...cuz i ask her to post...
...thanks nana...
-----------------MARCH BABY --------------------
Attractive personality. sexy.
Affectionate Shy & reserved.
Secretive. Naturally honest,
generous & sympathetic.
Loves peace & serenity.
Sensitive to others.
Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy.
Appreciative & returns kindness.
Hardly shows emotions.
Tends to bottle up feelings.
Observant & assesses others.
omg *sexy*? *great kisser* ?
woohoo...nyahaha...try me plz...
yah mostly everything seemz true.
sucha reliable source of horoscope.
where did she gets dat?
hmmm...i wonder.
a great astrologer i shall sae.
u c...itz true
i tend to bottle up things &
sympathetic...
dats y...
i care bout oters feelings &
i olwez help oters cuz
im sympathy on dem...
but many takes da advantage
towards my kindness...
...hmmm...
home(aunty's house) doesn't seemz to
be da safer place anymore...
i juz feel lyk wana run away...
anywhere...as long as theres
peace & freedom 4 me...
no1 understand me.
how tough life cud b...
if u evo ask me
wad i really wan...
i wan back my home
which i used to haf
wif my family...
i do really wana runaway now.
...haiz...
************
listenin to:
everybody's fool - evanescence
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
1:32 AM
after all da sleepless nyte.
haiz...how i wish,
i wana sleep
& wen i wake up,
i wana 4get everytn,every1
& wadevo shits happened.
but im wrong...
i can't...
so now...
im into crown polo tees.
urgh...i juz lurve dem sey.
& we had a great swensen lunch
after all da so-long-neva-hangout
wif da twinx...
i love dem loads...
dey juz neva fail to make me
smile & laugh...
wenevo we mit...
...*u r my 1 true fren*...
...urgh...
itz sooo farkin hard...
y tiz happen to me?...
hmmm...give me courage sum1...
...plz...
where da fark is my
fairy god-mutha?...LOLx...
make me beautiful plz?...
************
listenin to:
forgive me - evanescence
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
3:03 AM
(WARNING : long post, grandmutha stories)
itz over...*wadevo*...
but da scar is stil ther'.
utterly disappointed...
no hard feelings...
juz move on wif our lives.
i've learnt lotsa stuffz...
im becumin more tougher & stronger
& learn 2 stand on my own 2 feet.
& make da right decision.
whichevo applicable...LOLx.
& now i ony care bout my own feelings
instead of care bout oters feelings
as if dey really care bout mine.
but no worries...
those who really care bout me...
i wud do da same back to u...
sooo...everytyn's over...
shud i b happy or sad??...
i wud sae both...
happy cuz...NO MORE farkin projex.
sad cuz...all *hard werk* seemz to b
...*unseen & useless*...
hah lyk i used 2 sae...
she-gets-all-da-farkin-attention...
so-wad-as-if-i-farkin-care...
my heart really hurtz...
no one juz seemz to c...
...*wadevo la enh*...
presentation i wud sae...
well done 4 dem...&
quite bad 4 us...
we diden prepare...
cuz not really had da tyme.
juz lyk oterz haf really enuff
farkin tyme to prepare...
overall i wud sae...
...*wadevo la enh*...
i juz dun wana haf any
misunderstanding & enemies...
those who knows me...u shud noe...
but...wen sum pple juz thinkin
of anoter wae round of me...
u r definitely *WRONG*...
all i wanted to say...
im really sorry...
4 wadevo shits dat i said or done.
im really very sorry.
i was really *stress* & olwez
...*breakin down*...
u shud noe wad...
im sucha *cry-baby*
olwez cry...
...haiz...
...*wadevo*...
to her:
thank u soo much.
i juz duno how to repay back
wadevo u haf done.
u had done ALOT...
u do really understand.
& u dun wan me 2 b soo *stress*.
so u wud rather share mine.
u told me dun think too much
but i did & breakin down
...im sorry...
& thanks 4 stayin up almost everynyte
...accompanying me...&
...im accompanying u...lolx.
i really appreciate ur hard werk.
all da best in ur future.
to him:
...thanks...
thank u soo much.
itz really hard to find
a fren lyk u...
da good 1 i mean...lolx...
though u olwez get offended easily
by my werds or comments...haha
u still encourage & support me
though we r in da different position.
& thanks 4
listenin & readin my complaints,
accompanyin me home late night
no doubt u sucha good fren 2 b.
all i can sae...
...*thanks*...
im NOT wadevo
u have heard bout me.
itz ok...itz alryt...
i can't find my wae...
i can't keep it ryt...
juz show me da ryt path.
************
listenin to:
broken,everybody's fool & my immortal
- evanescence -
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
4:20 PM
now left da big day...
Entrepreneurship Day...
i noe...there's gonabe conflict
i juz duno wad m i suppose 2 do.
i've got nothin 2 sae...
juz let me b da 1 got hurt...
i dun wana hurt ur feelings...
datz all...i noe u hurt alotz...
if u nid sum1 to talk...
i dun really mind listenin.
u cud share wif me...
cuz i cud feel oters feelings.
u dun haf 2 talk bout it if u dun wan to
i understand...
i duno wad is love...
im stewpid @ it...
dun ask me bout BGR stuffz.
i duno wad to talk bout it.
& i dun haf tyme to think bout it
or think whether im gona haf a boi.
i juz wana noe...
who's da retard gonabe my hubby...
NONSENCE...ok im juz crappin...
fark la...ok yah missing him
wadevo...
good la fine...
dun wan talk to me ryt...
go and die...lolx...
gona close thiz blog la...
full of crapz & nonsence...
haiz...im thinkin of new stuffz.
busy...busy...busy...
************
listenin to:
everybody's fool - evanescence
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
3:34 AM
EAIPJ done...
so...shud i b happy or sad?
i wud sae BOTH...
happy cuz itz finish...
sad cuz...
u dun understand @ all...
no further elaboration.
cuz im utterly disappointed.
im gettin sick & tired...
u juz dun get it...
i hope u won't disappoint me
...nx tyme.
i dun wana hurt u...
juz let me b da 1 get hurt...
itz really tough & hard...
which cud make me cry sooo hard.
thanks sooo much...
to those who cud really
understand da feelings...
oters wud sae "big deal."
but 4 me...itz really farkin
testing my damn patient.
it thought me 2 b more strong.
& make da right decision on my own.
FINE...so...
dun wana talk to me ryt?
as-if-im-gona-care-bout-u.
i noe...im being *DUMB* here...
i juz feel soo farkin stewpid.
u juz makin-use-of-me-4-ur-own-good.
my heart really hurt...
i thought...u cud understand me, but
no...u dun...haiz...
itz sooo pain inside.
i duno whether u really
makin used of me onot
i hope u r not...
if u got anything or sumtyn to sae
juz say...dun hide things inside
cuz i dun look down on pple...
************
listenin to:
perfect world - simple plan
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
4:15 AM
feel lyk...
wana close tiz
stewpid, crappy blog of mine...
but stil thinkin...
busy wif skewl stuff...
hurt wif my sistas...
stess wif projex...
conflict wif family...
i feel LOST...
i feel sooo hurt...
i feel sooo stress...
itz sooo farkin pain...
but u dun understand...
i juz nid u to understand...
datz all...nothin much...
izit sooo farkin hard???...
u r there wen u really
farkin in need of me...
u r around wen u wana
farkin make me jealous...
who do u think i m???
i've forgotten who m i...
now i realised who i m...
im juz nobody to u ryt???
my hearts really broken
its soo pain til i can't breath
i cry really very hard in da ladies
feel quite relieve after
talkin wif my fren...
feel stewpid cryin on da phone
while he's juz listenin
on de oter end...
we both had da same problems...
but some r not same as mine...
he cud feel mine...&
i cud feel his...
thank god i haf u...
@ least...theres sum1 to talk to.
thankz _____...
*************
listenin to:
Perfect World - Simple pLan
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
6:29 AM
hurt inside...
hard to erase...
yah i noe...
im fat & ugly...
@ least i haf a heart...
not lyk *her*...
farkin heartless...
but still...
dey treasure her lyk...
1 big farkin retarded moron...
y m i olwez haf tiz feeling?
eeeeee...
da sight of her really pukes me man...
...hey dude...
wipe my tears...
erase my sadness...
make me smile again...
regain back my courage...
im gettin sick of her...
pls la...stop farkin irritate me.
sucha beauty display though i've seen
nothin beautiful stuff from u...
can ignore my previous post...
im juz crappin...LOLX...
************
unfaithful - rihanna
(thanks nozie for tiz sonk heee).
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
3:20 AM
