tomorrow is FRIDAE!!!
phark off those people
who wanna spoil my day.
i love every fridae...
...gothic is love...
searching for my gothic love.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
2:44 PM
pharkyn hate first day!
everyone asked me why i feel
sooo moody & look like sick.
thank god they are all ladies.
we gettyn sick of aunty's food.
so we ordered Mac hehe...
i really don't understand...
i thought what i did was right.
i've olwez make a stewpid decision.
and yes FOREVER make the wrong choice!
...yeargh im weak...
im the most *weakiest* person on EARTH!
unlike the most *strongiest* one...
i thought i could come clean...
it just simply comes to worst...
whatever la right! already been said...
can't take back my words what...
...(enter BIG sigh here)...
being untruthful is WRONG...
being truthful is also WRONG...
i just pharkyn don't understand!!!
having one more friend...
...is BETTER than...
making one more enemy...
don't think many pple realise this.
I KNOW LAH IM PHARKYN
STEWPID FAT & STEWPID UGLY...
NOBODY WANT FRIEND WITH ME WHAT!
BECAUSE IM BIG...FATTY-BOM-BOM!!!
IM VERY WEAK INSIDE...
GOOD FOR NOTHING...SUCHA CRYBABY...
I OCCUPY MANY SPACE...
IM VERY SMELLY...I GOT BIG TUMMY...
NOT LIKE YOU WHAT... -.-
************
listenin to:
all good things (come to an end)
- nelly furatdo -
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
8:59 PM
my hp is dead... GREAT!
can't SMS & can't make calls ...
... * S-T-E-W-P-I-D * ...
new hp ???... urgh
i'm saving to buy digicam lah!
bought new top... i lurve it!
more more i nid MORE!!!
i think i really nid a
...* GOOD massage *...
my back...so HURT lah siol.
i'm having tense lah on my left side.
too much siting & starin on comp kot?
i really need a massage man.
ok how much altogether...
that's gona cost me? huh? huh? huh?
i'm gonabe BROKE man.
stab by de broken piece of glass
inside me i cry...
the heartless wind kept blowin, blowin
i used to be my own protection
but not now...
truely deeply sadly...
truthful deeply hurtful...
& the clouds above move closer,
looking so dissatisfied.
makes me excited for nothing... so hurt.
my insides turned into ash... so slow.
& blow away as i collapsed... so cold.
i've been HATED.
************
listentin to:
Valentine's Day - LinkinPark
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
2:59 AM
had a nitemare last nite...
it's totally FREAK ME OUT!!!
don't wanna elaborate more.
stuffs @ werk doin fine...
LOVE my job...
don't wanna leave...sobz!
i like the environment...
NO politics...
NO backstabber...&
NO racist people...
5 weekz left...
just bought LP's new album...
from sis & get discount...
coz her boi is werkyn @ HMV...
free LP blaque tee,
gigantic posters & wristband.
everything cost me juz 15 bux !!!
sooo pharkyn worth it sia...
LP's new sonk juz makes me
lost into my very own world...
another reason why...
i love my journey back home
...LOVE my MP4...
phark this HURTS no matter how i tried
everyone's gonna HATE me even MORE
once story being narated.
spit on me...curse me...
never knew it's soo pharkyn hard
to be stayed on like this...
someone who used to be my side...
lookin @ me in anger on de other side
together with them...
i would be de one...alone...
alone with the secrets &...regrets.
bleed it out...
taking deeper...
just to throw it...away.
she asks me, who ?
i said, a scorpio dude .
she asks me, what ?
i said, wad wad wad? YALAH .
she asks me, when ?
i said, god knows .
she asks me, where ?
i said, obviously somewhere on earth .
she asks me, why ?
i said, horoscopes .
she asks me how ?
i said, destiny .
& she sayz i'm insane
thankz for the compliments anywae.
sumtymez i think
it's better to be one.
************
listenin to:
shadow of the day - LinkinPark
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
8:50 PM
feel like i'm DEAD...
...
blacklisted coz of my devilsmouth
...
reveal w/o thinkin million tymez
...
say what came into my mind
...
is it wrong being truthful?
...
i really hate those feelings
...
i've been deeply HURT becoz of u
...
& i didn't utter any wordz
...
keep everything inside with swears&curse
...
i should keep the way i used to be
...
get HURT is better then hurtin someone
...
never trust to what i've said &
what i've done
...
left my smile twenty miles away.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
10:04 PM
i was wondering...
if i was born like a ...
...* beauty matchstick *...
everyGal wana make FRIEND with me,
...* Gossypz & Shoppynz *...
everyBoi wana DATE me out...OMG!!!
...* Snoggyn & Flirtyn *...
MANY people gona HATE me to the CORE!
i would spend ...
40% on clothes,
30% on beauty make-ups,
20% on entertainment,
5% on my transportations &
5% on food... HILARIOUS !!!
all food shall exit once they entered,
toylert would be my favourite outing.
& the most unexpectedly, i would be
...* sucha BITCHY *...
i would hurt many feelings & get hurt
...* soooo DEEPLY *...
& freakyloser would call me...
...* Beauty with NO brain *...
THANK GOD to what i am right now.
been watching VCDz& DVDz the whole day
planned to go out but im just
don't have the mood...so it's CANCELLED.
i HATE running nose...
wanna get well SOON
im pharkyn pissed easily when there's
...* NOSE-BLOCKED *...
i PHARKYN hate it...
when it needs me to WAIT...
waityn for NOTHING...
feel sooo freakyn DUMB sey!!!
they make me like pharkyn what sia.
talk to them like talkin with walls.
if there isn't me in there,
i won't simply pharkyn ask 4 it lah!
if ony i could make them WAIT like i do
i would be glad to hear it sia...
...* pharkyn irritatyn sey *...
i want a dream...
it turns out a nitemare,
i want to smile...
it makes me cry,
i want you...
but u say goodbye
sumtymes i wish i wana get an anorexia.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:58 AM
i just wanna go home...
& get things back to normal.
like we used to have when i was young.
i dun mind being the one olwez givenup
when argue with my sista...
wanna talk more stuffs with my brader
unlike right now...
everyone seems having their own lifes
& me...the one shoutin & screamin
@ the kiddos/monster to shut up...
& my parent...argueing about politics
as if they are member of the PAP/UMNO.
i want the *family moments*
like others do...
why my family is so strange?
as if i could feel there's a breakup.
all i want...is to go home...
yeay tmr is friday...
hate her even MORE...
thought things getting better...
it's just turns out another way round
unlike what i expected...
she's so pharkyn different...
her mindset is getting more & more weird
i think she's becoming a WEIRDO.
her brain cells doesn't seems right.
guess she's experienced a major depressed
if i were to be her councellor,
i would automatically resign...
...wastyn my pharkyn tyme la ryt...
im out...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
8:49 PM
W-A-S-T-E-D laaaaaaaaaaaah
didn't go werk todae.
1 day GONE...
i really wanted to stay 10 days
without absent-ing myself.
haiz when izit gona happen?
i'm having SORE-THROAT & lite feva!
results from not listenin to MOM
coz itz rainin yesterdae morning.
hard for me to SWALLOW.
THANKS mom...
hope those stuff could ease de PAIN.
sooo...
wad de hell i'm goin to do @ home?
i dun care im asking QI out.
i'm not gonna stay @ home
listenin to those monster shoutinz!
juz makes me even more PARANOID.
ya i'm havin paranoia sickness currently.
feelin disturbed when ppl talkin LOUDLY
& walk as if they owned da place
come on laaaaaaaaaaah...
irritating bastard!!!
she said she's really nid a MAN dat
could spend de rest of his life with her,
be there for her whenevo she's sad,
being wronged,paranoid or in pain...etc,
surprises her when she feels down,
sings her before off to sleep everynite
though how aweful he may sound...lolx,
listens to his MOM...
no matter gd/bad she is,
won't giveup easily &...
sacrifice everything...
phuck it laaa...
thiz MAN doesn't even EXIST !!!
even if there IS...
i would be the last lady on his list &
to think millions tyme to stay with me...
wanna noe the reason why???
coz im a MONSTER!!! muahahahar...
ok there it goes my CRAP...
can someone makes me beautiful?
damnz i wanna empty my shitz now.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
1:21 PM
i've got problems wakin'up in da
...* M-O-R-N-I-N-G *...
somebody can tell me...
ways to get rid of LAZYNESS???
i still countin down...
every hours & minutes...
waitin for the lappy's clock to
...* 1230 or 530 *...
pharkyn hate it when *people* start
to conversate in *foreign* language
which i'm having lil'understanding...
though not that fully... -.-
juz wad da pharkyn wrong wif me sey?
i really pharkyn hate thiz feeling!
im gettyn P-A-R-A-N-O-I-D easily...
hate those things lyk...
devilsmouth, betrayal, evolminded emoz
itz hauntyn me like what de phark lidat.
is it hard for me being myself?
PHARK YOU BITCH!!!
i don't pharkyn care wadevo shitz
u wana do or sae bout me ryt pharkyn NOW...
CURSE YOU BITCH...
still can say doesn't know
whats her pharkyn WRONG...
see urself in da pharkyn mirror
& recallz back those pharkyn shits
u have done lah can???...
doesn't really KNOW...
or juz pretend YOU dun PHARKYN know...
...wadevo lah BITCH....(with my eyes rolling)
uglyBETTY tag me!!! haha.
ok to whoevo u are...
THANKS for tag me... hehx.
i already blast my brain...
& thiz particular honey lady will
reveal it once i've transfer de bling bling
but she's given me errr...
typical account number... -.-
im addictied on sumtyn...
itz hard for me to stop it.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
9:05 PM
sooo DISGUSTYN!
pple hate to sit beside her
coz she's BIG & used up most of it.
her BO suckz!!!
get away sign seen on her forehead.
it's totally STINKS!!!
having sensitive skin...
which is called an ACNE...
don't ever BUMP onto her
if u dun wana get it.
have 2 fugly legs & hates dem
her feets are wide and long...
& hard 2 find any footwear
which PISSES OFF many salesgal.
phatz are all over...
sumtymez she feels...
wanna burn herself
to kill those extra flesh...
she hates her damn pharkyn hair...
simply annoyed her to the CORE
sooo pharkyn dry & wavy!!!
dandruffs are all over her fringe.
don't ever look on her face...
itz damn oily DUDE...
pimples poping out one after another!
& think millions tyme to SNOG her...
coz she's having a terribly BAD breath.
which makes guys vomit???
think a billion tymez
before asking/date her out...
coz she's a WEIRDO...
she gets freak out easily,
...anytyme & anywhere...
UGLY BETTY...her favourite series!
her fashion...VERY weird taste!
in class...she's the LOSER!
everybody HATES her!!!
who did i just talking about???
im just mad...am i???...
GO AWAY! don't u understand?
pointing out 2 middle fingers.
i don't want to know about it.
just don't tell me anything.
leave me alone & go away from me.
let me lost into my own world.
im a hazard to myself...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
3:42 AM
7 more weekz...
to my holidae!!!
OH FARK!!!
it's also my GRADUATION DAY!
i mean graduation week.
my previous post is a crap!
i wasn't intend to post it.
accidentally click PUBLISH...
coz my sis wanted to use comp.
i wanted to click SAVE AS DRAFT.
super-duper-nonsence LAH!
no life sia...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:56 AM
got 2...
one is married...
one is single...
but he's a MALAYSIAN!
WHY?????
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
7:16 PM
errr...
i think he's CUTE...
that's all...
though the store room
totally freak me out...
i would stil FORCE myself to go.
coz i could walk pass his classroom.
who the hell is he sia...
her werk stuffz not that BAD afterall.
NESCAFE makes me wakeup...thanks.
my bro suggest me to be a teacher.
is he trying to be funny?
ME? TEACHER? oh come on lah.
my english 7 Distinction...
with this face to be a teacher?
...muahahahar...
im laughyn my arse off sia.
should I or shouldn't I?
REALLY don't feel like wana go!
im juz nobody lah right...
no one is expectin my presence though.
im juz using up most of the space.
& the burden to them... -.-
who the hell wants to be fren
with a total freaky LOSER like me sia?
afterall, they are juz make used of me
u said have those lil'HOPES...
i still believe u...i trust u.
wadevo has happened though nothin happen
u make me have those lil'FAITH too...
we do really has the same feelings...
...thanks sham...
we just wait for that moment to come.
keep on waityn like i do...
let me be the 1st to know...
& i hope u the same too...
& eeeewww light up my life...
u gave me hope...to carry on....
yah listenin to that song again.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
10:10 PM
stuff @ werk is purrrfectly fine.
escape from being caught red handed.
confirmed i replace MEIHWA's place.
should practice WAKEUP from my sleepz.
i still love AMANDA'S place.
CELINE send me home...*felt guilty*
i do really HATE this feeling...
should have just ask to drop @...
North Point BK. or sumtyn...
hope they found their way...
damnz i won't do it again...
...* P-A-R-A-N-O-I-D *...
tmr muz treat her liao...
for a moment,
i'm thinkin of becoming a councellor/advicer
on the other side,
figurin out of being a spa therapist
... hmmmmmmm ...
an event planner also not that bad...
haiz...i can't think what job suits me man.
juz that i like to meet people
& communicate with them...
what a Diploma in BizIT holder can do sey?
i do REALLY nid to find some job
that can make use of my CREATIVITY!
am i that pharkyn impuissant???
i juz pharkyn HATE it...
when others feel & think that
i am sucha FEEBLE freak!!!
...wadevo la enh...
look urself in de mirror
& find ur impurrrfectness la can?
when i'm online duryng WEEK dayz
doesn't mean i'm that pharkyn FREE
i am VERY VERY VERY busy
till i bored to DEATH
yawnz yawnz yawnz...
but wadevo it is... i lyk what i'm doin
i love it! i love it! i love it!
gimme more...gimme more...
im not tryin to be SARCASTIC...
this is the TRUTH...
when i'm BUSY i tend to FORGET
...* my nitemares *...
& eventually they GONE OFF...
isn't that pharkyn GREAT???
i guess this therapy WORKS for me!
is it called therapy??? WADEVO!...
boifrens is a waste of tyme...
tell me more to prove me wrong.
WHY???...im sick of waityn...
think i like my life now.
if there IS...
have to kiss many FROGS
before i could get a purrrfect SNOG.
im being so emo NOW!
*************
listenin to:
u light my life - leann rimes
(thanks qi for the songtitle)
this sonk really touches my heart.
makes me cry compare to titanic sonk!
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
9:15 PM
bought 2 tops and i lurve it.
so, no more bags & sandals!
more tops for me can???
gettyn sick & tired of fastfood...
PizzaHut,Swensen,SeoulGarden&SakaeSushi
simply bored to the core...
fish&co damn oily...pastamania sucks.
is kenny roger & billy bomber nicex?
secret recipe sound not so bad...
cavana...another chixrice???
intro nice places can???...
all shoppyn centres seems alike...
now then i feel s'pore is small.
i guess the CONFESSION is a MISTAKE.
i guess the REQUEST makes me so DUMB.
what's the pharkyn wrong with me sey?
it was like all of a sudden...tell me,
is it wrong to be truthful???
...* hate this feeling *...
i think it's pharkyn better for me to
* keep everything to MYSELF *
& throw all shits to my blog!
...most importantly...
* think million tymes b4 doin/sayin/typin*
REALLY...i'm thinkin of...
deleting my taggy...
so people would just...
read my entry get MISUNDERSTOOD
& SHUT UP!...hahak...
i want to open a new chapter.
i want to close & forget my nitemares.
...remember those fond memories...
& learn from whatever mistakes i've done.
once a freaka, olwez & 4evo be a freaka!
hell care what people want to say bout me.
im such a backstabber? devilmouth? betrayal?
what i know i'm NOT a HYPOCRYTE!
NO ORANGE-COLOURED paragraph!
i lazy to think...
8 more weeks...
but i LOVE the staff there...sobz.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:52 PM
YEAY!!! it's FRIDAY!!! *finally*.
dragged myself to work.
saw 39 & run for nothing.
second person to queue,
doesn't mean i'm kiasu.
first time get to seat by the window.
duno what happened today...
the bus seems not crowded like it used to be.
was listening to torn by Natalie Imbruglia.
it just makes me lost into my own world.
isn't it good if everyday like this? haiz.
get to sit on Mr. Liew's sport car.
i was like OH-MAI-GAWD...
before that was pushing one another
between me & julia...LOLX lah...
so...that would be my very first time!
& it feels sooo COOLX.
blinded with names, formulae & numbers.
teach me MORE i want the experience!
received a simple & sweet SMS
that touches my heart...
holding on my tears...
i thought i'm the only one...
thinkin of them most of the time.
till i get emos & feel like DUMB!
but she felt the same way too...
"Peace in ur HEART!
Health in ur BODY!
Wealth in ur LIFE!
Joy in ur HOME!
May u always be blessed with
these priceless treasures...
Good morning frens!"
she sends me @ 8:08AM in the morning!
i felt guilty for not replyin on time.
after i send that replied msg @ 6 plus,
she replied no one reply her except me.
and she felt so happy and miss me...
for that very moment...
my eyes full of tears liao...
...THANKS CHAI JIA LING SHRLENE...
really had a great hurtful conversation.
but i felt alot relieve & better after that.
to tell the truth, im not HYPOCRYTE!
i hope what i did is right...
may you lead a peaceful & great life ahead.
thanks for everything u have done.
she taught me to be more TOUGHER.
he called me after so LONG.
thanks...@ least there's someone
whom i think showing some care.
but i understand coz we're busy werkyn.
im off to sleep.
ok where's my pillow???
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:25 PM
YEAY!!! tomorrow is FRIDAE!
i should be happy whenevo itz fridae.
fark off to all spoiler can...
will be with SFC till JUNE!!!
thanks CELINE...
so it's gonabe 8 more WEEKZ...
dun understand why they hated *soyabean*
is she that damn BAD?...i dun get it.
she does look freaky sumtymes...
she's all by herself!
she like got no life sia! DUMB!...
workaholic???... *wadevo!*
u ever felt being HATED & AVOIDED?
others acting GOOD infront of u?
soo artificial right?...LOLX.
create drama/scene like that...
then some even BACKSTABBING & 2 headed.
lookyn down on YOU & being SARCASTIC???...
they think they feel GOOD doing that!
thought that they're the BEST...
everybody believes whatever he/she says.
& w/o any supporting evidences/documents,
just trust their words...
THESE ARE THE MOFOZ WHO DOESN'T HAVE any
...* HEART *...
& CARED ONLY ON THEIR FEELINGS.
if u ever think ur *frens*
being so pharkin diff towards YOU,
y bother?... juz pray hard
they would receive such way TOO!
y did i sae so???
coz i already pray hard...
paranoia hits them.
still more to come!
i juz hope they would CHANGE...
to be a BETTER person...
but not that perfectly,
coz since nobody is perfect la right?
& i can tell YOU...
that feeling of being HATED & AVOIDED,
IT'S SIMPLY SUCKZ TO THE CORE!!!
just be GOOD to your *frens*...
simply no HARM in not to HATE them right?
unless, if YOU'RE jealous towards THEM!
if you ask me to choose between...
a hot dude with wealth or
a loser guy with normal life...
i'll choose the loser!
with good-looking face obviously...LOLX
read my entry & get misunderstood.
tell storIES to others & HATE me...
if it satisfies YOU to the CORE!
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
9:36 PM
HAPPY 50th BIRTHDAE MUM!!!!!
i love you!!!!!
feelin sleepy @ werk.
countin down to 5:30...
den 39 is de 1st bus to come. YEAY!
i bought her dat white purplelish cake
sooo sweet...lookz abit lyk
my bro's engagement cake lah.
now, my parents are officially in their
...* Sweeet 50's *...
whoevo *misunderstood* towards my words
juz pretend we never been met before
tag me once more den enuff...
dun think there's necessary to submit
same text lyk a million tymes la ryt?...
im thinkin of deletin my taggy.
juz a waste of tyme...
i'll think about it laaaah...
itz gettyn rusty also
coz NOBODY would even bother to
*drop me a message*
after come into my *world*
& in de end get misunderstood
towards my post... *wadevo*
she thinks she's a QUEEN??? PRINCESS???
just a stewpid simple favour...
in other words juz an 8 letter question...
she treats it lyk a burden sia...
she sound as if *purposely*...
make me damn guilty...
as if im dying to have it lidat!
not me who wants it though!
come on la... grow up la BITCH!!!
4evo flat plastic...
i duno who i shall TRUST.
i can be good...& i can be bad.
i can be crazy...& i can be mad.
no one is purrrfect in de world lah!
do u think im sarcastic?
oh well...it depends...
i say bad things to pple
when they say me first...
i don't create some grandmutha stories
lyk some pple but i do tell the truth...
it was juz my point of view.
why bother bout me if don't bother
bout your own farkin life sia...
in my life...
frens are just like wad i describe below.
goodbye fren!
only few of my *frens*
who really do understand my *head*
will 4evo be mine...
when they treat me *GOOD*
& i will treat them de same wae.
otherwise...dat's fine with me.
den i will treat dem the another wae.
enuff with frens...
now im tired to talk about boifrens!
i dun have many frens.
this doesn't mean im an anti-social!
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
9:39 PM
i thought it's easy...
i don't have any guts...
maybe bcoz i'm a lady.
so what if i'm a lady?
did i do anything wrong?
did i break the law or something?
seriously it is not that easy.
...* D-E-S-P-E-R-A-D-O-S *...
i miss my homie sooo deeply.
sooo annoyin stayin @ pple's place.
i want my own room...
so i can do wadevo shit i want!
went back to homie laz week...
guess what's happened to my room?
i really feel like want to cry
on that very moment...
...* D-I-S-G-U-S-T-I-N-G *...
im gettyn out!
he's ANNOYIN!
K.N.N.B.L.C.C.B
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
10:18 PM
