i thynk i've been crying.
everydae.
i cried after i put down de phone...
coz he raised his voice to me...
i felt utterly heartbroken.
never evo he raises his voice to me.
i dun even noe wat wronged i've done.
i cried in de train...
coz he dun care anymore bout my feelynz.
his stuffz dat he evo wanted, dyingly...
is much more important den my feelynz.
i duno who am i to hym ryt now.
i cried every night...
coz i didn't take good care of myself.
i've spoilt. damaged. badly hurt.
whom no guyz wud evo wanted me anymore.
im juz...a thrash.
i cried everytyme wen i wake up...
coz everytyme wen i wake up...
itz lyk another freakyn pathetic lyfe...
which i need to face thru...
everydae.
& i cried everytyme wen i thynk bout hym.
i didn't noe fallyn in love is this hurt.
i felt hearbroken wen he doesn't msg/reply me.
which he used to do before,
wherelse itz de opposite wae round now.
i duno whether he still feelz de same wae
lyk he used to have on me before...
i duno whether he's with another women
behind my back...
i duno whether he juz usyn me...
lotz of stuffz runnyn in my head...
but i juz avoid n ignored those negative thoughts.
i've been faithful to hym.
i love hym all of my lyfe.
i give hym my everytyn n anytyn.
sumtymez i thynk...how stewpid i can be?
how dickhead n dumbfo0l i am...
to fall fer a guy lyk hym?
i juz can't stop lovyn hym.
n im not lying to myself.
im strong on de surface...
not all de wae thru...
i've neva been perfect...
but neither haf u.
************
listenyn to:
unbeautiful - Lesley Roy.
Don’t hang up, Can we talk...
So confused, It’s like I'm lost...
What went wrong, What made you go...
Don’t pretend you don’t know...
This is me...
I'm unchangeable...
When did we, Fall apart...
Or did you lie, From the start...
When you said, It's only you...
I was blind, Such a fool...
Thinking we...
We're unbreakable...
It was you and me against the world...
And you promised me forever more...
Was it something that I said...
was it something that I did...
Cuz I gotta know...
What made me unbeautiful...
I've been told, Whats done is done...
To let it go, And carry on...
And deep inside, I know that’s true...
I'm stuck in time, I'm stuck on you...
We were still untouchable...
It was you and me against the world...
And you promised me forever more...
Was it something that I said...
was it something that I did...
Cuz I gotta know...
What made me unbeautiful...
Wake up, wake up, wake up...
Cuz I'm only dreaming...
Get out, get out, get out, get out...
Get out of my head now...
Because we’re much better...
All together...
Can’t let go...
It was you and me against the world...
And you promised me forever more...
Was it something that I said...
was it something that I did...
Cuz I gotta know...
What made me unbeautiful...
It was you and me against the world...
And you promised me forever more...
Was it something that I said...
was it something that I did...
Cuz I gotta know...
What made me unbeautiful...
Make me unbeautiful.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
3:30 AM
life's a bore.
forced to werk to earn a living.
a living of others besides my own.
been scolded, cursed n hated.
im juz a piece of thrash in their eyes.
simply good-fer-nothing. :(
i've wasted my tears...
lyk fer a million of yrs...
sucha freakyn cry-baby-b0o-h0o-h0o...
no one carez though... my feelynz i mean.
being emo is juz me.
im juz sick n tired of crying.
make me smile plz. :(
When a GIRL is quiet...
millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing...
she is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions...
she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a GIRL answers 'I'm fine' after a few seconds...
she is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you...
she is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest...
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday...
she wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL says 'I love you'...
she means it.
When a GIRL says 'I miss you'...
no one in this world can miss you more than that.
Life only comes around once...
make sure u spend it with the right person...
Find a guy...
who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
who calls you back when you hang up on him.
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who...
kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world...
when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Who is constantly reminding you of...
how much he cares about you and...
how lucky he is to have you.
Who turns to his friends and says,
' That's her!!! '
knape lelaki suke sakitkan haty seorg perempuan?
knape lelaki suke banding2kan semua perempuan?
y all guyz olwez goes fer LOOKz den inner beauty?
no one is perfect though in this world!
n why all de compares?
lelaki semuernye samer...
satu konek cumer ingt satu puki.
da sedap pakai, troz buang.
tak amek kisah pon perasaan seorg perempuan tu.
hina sgt ke perempuan ni?
nangiz airmater darah pon, tkkn dpt alek punyer.
they've given their everytyn n anytyn n watevo.
this is wat they get in return?
prempuan smuer samer peh...
satu puki dua tetek. tk cukop agy peh?
knape lelaki takleh setia pade yg satu?
bukan kepercayaan tapi kesetiaan.
it hurtz. sooo deeply.
i never fall in love before...
i gave chance n open up my heart
to fall in love... but it hurtz.
it hurtz me terribly.
im choked. i hate love.
once it breakz, i'd shut it close 4evo.
expect the unexpected.
how am i suppoze to trust hym fully?
if i were to trust hym fully,
it would be a BYG lie i shall sae.
i dun lyk to tell lies n i hate liarz.
he cud do anytyn behynd my back, whu noes?
all guys are de same. same dick thynk alyk.
im juz de'gal nx door...
whom no one bother to glance at.
im fyne... no worries. :]
************
listenyn to:
unbeautyf0ol - lesley roy.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
3:10 AM
anywae b4 i start...
MERRY X'MAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!
yeah god bless...
i noe itz kind of T0o0o0o0o late.
baaaaah. whu cares.
no one cares.
no one evo do cares.
im changed. everyone changed.
everytyn juz seemz so different.
as dayz goes by...
i realised how thyngz simply make sum1 changed
juz lyk dat...a single snap.
ouh wadevo!
i have a FAMILY...
(which i dun feel lyk im part of em').
- de'one who olwez being laz person to noe
whenevo theres an occasion or sumtyn on...
yeah im de one.
i do have a number of FWENZ...
(which i dun feel lyk i do have one...errr).
- i mean hi-bye, hey-howz-life, yo-wassup
de type of fwenz ya i've quite numbers of em'...
besides... backstabberz.
& im in a relationshyp...
(it changed my LIFE completely).
yeah im officially got myself a Mr.ParanoidGuy/Mr.Gothic
*gives around of applause everyone*...
ouhkae lame. -_______-" .
im juz totally dun have de freakyn idea.
i learn, i read, i see n i look.
inexperienced, pardon me if im being sucha dumb GF.
yeah, if only he reads.
i myss skewl lyfe.
(being studious n top student in class.)
i myss FM lyfe.
(being fame n get well-known in cyber.)
now... everytyn's gone...
actually being studious n fame...
kind of lame thyng to be. -______- .
i didn't noe love test is much more hard
compared to those tests i took in class.
ouh well, im imperfect.
in de first place, i dun understand...
why he wants to be with me...
why he wants to love me...
n why he wants to be dat Mr.PG™ .
he makes me smile... :]
he makes me laugh... :D
he makes me sad... :(
he makes me cry... :'(
he makes me pissed off... :|
& he teaches me what is love... :X
ouh, im so afraid of heartbreak.
Myss&Mr.PG™ . de one and only real love.
yeah lyk olwez. me n my innocent look. -.-"
to love or to be loved.
or both? heee. :]
************
listenyn to:
ku takkan bersuara - nike ardilla
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
6:25 AM
