i miss letting go my anger...
i miss writing down my sadness...
im simply miss blogging...
after 3 long years.
i guess this is me... the real me...
juz me, myself and I...
living in my own world.
i prefer it to be this way. im happy. :]
4 months ago...
life seems unpredictable...
...BIG SIGH...
dated 31st Jan 2012...
im officially broken up with hym.
after 3yrs 5mths 19days... we are DONE.
jyeah... lyk finally. wasted.
i had enuff living with heartbreaker.
i had enuff living in insecurityness.
i had enuff living in ur shyt lyfe.
my intention all along was to change YOU
but im the one who is changyn in the end.
4 months later... [now]
im trying real hard now to be me...
the me whom i used to be.
i miss the old me. crazy as usual. haha!
met few new ppl in FB and i've changed.
i start to solat now and trying to complete the 5 of it.
InsyaAllah. all i need right now is HIM to forgive me...
afterall what i've done.
HE knows better. only HE could understand me.
the one and only whom im hoping to, trust and believe in...
im not tryna be a preacher.
juz dat i need those faith to still go on in this lyfe.
im fightyn myself for the life in hereafter, for the Jannah.
InsyaAllah... all i need is your guidance.
i know YOU listenyn to me ya Allah.
YOU know what i've went thru and only YOU know.
i wana change to be a better person, to be a better me.
im slowly leavyn you and erase those fond memories with you.
i've forgiven you and now im trying real hard to forget you.
i met beautyful and nice ppl in FB.
itz parts and parcel of lyfe. every each human will be tested.
i live everydae and accept anytyn datz happen to me.
i've got those lil crushes and loves... but i juz leave it to HIM.
u can't control or change ppl's hearts and feelynz.
u juz have to accept any feelynz dat u're having.
whether im in love, hurtz, anger or in pain...
some werds or feelynz is better to be left unsaid.
as long as HE knows... itz more than enuff.
i prefer it to be that way...
only to YOU i seek for forgiveness, guidance and heal my pain.
aku hidop hanya tinggal untuk mati.
selagy nyawa dikandong badan...
selagy itu aku berusaha dan berikhtiar...
mencari keampunan darimu ya Allah.
duniawi da takde makne lagy...
berilah aku pertunjukmu kejalanmu...
tenangilah dan lapangilah jiwaku...
jauhkanlah aku dari bisikan dan godaan syaitan.
sesungguhnya aku takot dgn neraka jahanam mu.
lindungilah daku... lindungilah daku...
Ameen Ya Rabbal Al Ameen.
mungkin stgh org akan fikir...
akulah prempuan yg bodoh tuh...
buat sesuatu tak fikir dulu...
ikotkn sgt dgn perasaan tuh...
inilah dia... bak kater pepatah melayu...
ikot haty, maty. ikot rase, binasa...
haty punah, jiwa bisa...
mudah sgt terpedaya pujok rayu,
mudah sgt termkn kata2.
once bitten, twice shy... third tyme happen... datz it.
terhina sunggoh rase diri ini.
tknk mengharap, tknk berharap...
hidop jgn terlalu mengharapkan sgt...
kelak nanty kecewa sendiri...
kiter sedeh ke, kiter marah ke...
orang laen tkkn tao dan tkkn amek tao...
kalao ader, aderla. kalao tkder, tkderla.
aku pasrah, aku redha. aku terima segala-galanya.
aku hidop hanya menunggu ketibaan Izrail.
there are thyngs we dun wana happen but haf to accept.
thyngs we dun wana noe but haf to learn,
and ppl we can't live without but haf to let go.
juz let it go... let it flow.
here i go... so dishonestly...
leave a note... for u my only one...
and i noe... u can see ryt thru me...
so let me go... and u will fynd someone...
listenyn to: YellowCard - My Only One
deep inside, itz still bleedyn.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
6:40 AM
