...*my feelingz*...
i try 2 control...da
...*drop of tears*...
...wantin to fall...
i juz can't help it...
i thought im quite tough...
i thought im quite alryt...
but guess im *WRONG*...
i break down...
...in da end...
thank GOD...
i have YOU...
thank GOD...
i have HER...
i duno which way 2 go...
i duno who 2 talk...
i duno how 2 say...
& i duno why it turn out
...tiz way...
u may think...
im quite *sensitive*...
im sucha *cry-baby*...
but cum on i nid 2 let it go
& i nid to cry...
...wen disaster struck...
...shit happens...
dey juz farckin...
testin my damn patience...
dey juz think...
dey r damn GOOD...
yah good @ bitching...
& gettin center of attraction...
WHY me?...WHY her?...
& why izit muz b US???
i juz dun haf da farckin
...*REASON*...
being da minority...
simply damn farckin SUXXX...
itz oredy wk 2...
i duno wad happen next...
im totally given up...
juz say wad da FUCK u wana say
@ least i try...
to understand *PEOPLE*...
@ least i try...
to be *NICE*...
@ least i try...
to *SMILE*...
i hate olwez being alone
but lyk *he* used to say...
"im oredy given up on dem"...
guess im tryin to giveup...oso
& i didn't noe dat...
i had waste lotsa tears...
...on *THEM*...BIG sigh...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:10 PM
im pissed...
im breakin down...
im feelin fuck'd up...
even a loza wil dumped me...
cum on im juz nobody...
im not da popular gal in skewl...
becoz im fugly dumb...
im not da smart ass @ skewl...
becoz im farckin moron...
i juz h8 seekin...
...*center of attraction*...
wen im down, i juz cry...
im speechless, wen i c u...
hellooo...i juz h8 it...
wen shit happens...
i juz can't face da fact...
wen u gone, im lost...
u r there, wen u nid me...
@ least i share wif u, my h8s
juz dun tell any1 bout it...
lyk me 4 who i m...
h8 me 4 who i m not...
listen 2 me if u do...
farck off if u r not...
i dun feel...
...*talk 2 me* stuff werks
& i miss every chance of...
...*get 2 noe me* style
i juz let fate decide...
cuz i lost faith...
& im too young 2 noe bout it...
dun trust me...
cuz i do tell lies...
trust me faithfully...
wen i cry...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:55 PM
...*damnz*...
i got flu & lil of fevar...
thanks 2 my aunt...haiz...
well itz minor ones...
supposed to mit ming...
but im too sick & lazy...
to get my ass off da house...
...nyehahas...
skewl was bored to death...
damn those who say its coolx
it was ony da 1st week...
& deadlines start to chasin us
by da 3rd week...
need 2 submit 2 projekz...
i mean part of it...haiz...
i dun feel peace @ home...
...*NO MORE*...
i dun feel good in skewl...
...*ANY MORE*...
i wana GO OUT!!!...
*peace out*
im gonna break down...
...*anytime*...
...*anywhere*...
************
listenin to:
8 mile - eminem
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
8:12 PM
...*irritated*...
...*fucked up*...
...*pissed off*...
i juz feel dat...
everyone hates me...
everyone avoidin me...
everyone annoyed me...
since awhile i didn't cry...
& yah now im lettin go...
...*everything*...
i shout as loud as i can...
i cry as hard as i can...
im lettin everythin OUT...
every single thing...
dat were kept...inside...
every single thing...
bottled up...inside...
they juz dun get it...
im totally *PISSED OFF*...
i juz wana get out from...
da nitemare...
da sleepless nitex...
but...i duno how...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
9:31 PM
dun tel me wad i shud sae
dun try 2 tel me wadz ryt 4 me
cuz i dun wana waste my time
being da different me...
y am i olwez being hated?
y am i olwez being pointed?
im sick & tired
of being shooted...
plz stop al of da hatez!
& stop al of da nonsences!
i can't stand listenin to it
& i can't do anythin 2 stop it
cuz i dun haf da courage...
& i need sum1 2 noe...
we used 2 b as 1
but now we fallen apart
who's at da fault?
every1 pointin fingers out...
cum on...
GrOw Up PeOpLe...!!!
& erase *racist* in ur dictionary...
I H8 IT...
I H8 LONELINESS...
& I H8 EVERYONE...
************
listenin to:
puke - eminem
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
10:00 PM
but...sit @ home...
...do nothin...
might as well...
go catch movie or sumtyn...
yups we went Prince...
& itz coolx & awesome...
cuz da audience can b counted!
we catch *Reincarnation*...
not bad la...
not quite scary though...
i wud rate it 5/10...
aaargh...
skool gona start...
real soon...& i mean...
...*really SOON*...
so lyk i used 2 sae...
da begin of suckz life...
so now...3rd year...
how tyme pass...
& i wud prefer...
please graduate SOON!...
hmmmmm...
dunoe wadz next...
i wud rather...
...*keepin my mouth shut*...
all i wan is...
...*focus*...&...
...*concentrate*...
in my studies...
den mixin wif da wrong...
...*company*...
wen wil it end?...
dun wana involve in anythin...
neither wana support anyside...
im juz tryin 2 b myself...
...*again*...
@ least try 2 understand me
if wana me 2 understand u
************
dillema - nelly & kelly rowland
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
10:37 PM
haiz...watch movie...
...*Black Nite*...@ PS
cum on...
it supposed 2 b...
horror & scary MOVIE!!!
haiz...kidz nowadaez...
it turned out 2 b...
funny movie instead...
wad da hell...
i h8 watchin wif kidz...
we 3 sooo damn in2
of da movie...
& dey laughin lyk...
*no-body-bizness*...
yah i agree though...
theres funny parts...
but those not kindof...
dey still laugh...haiz...
ok 4get bout dat...
duno wadz goin on...
kidz now-a-dayz...
yah i once being a kid...
but...*we r not lyk dem*...
we saw a group of kidz...
crowdin @ middle of da walkwae...
...*DAMNZ*...
bunch of retarded moron...
neva use brain sia...
hang out @ wrong place...
if i were their parents...
i wud slap dem...&...
obviously...i won't teach my kidz
to be lyk dat...hehx...
i wud rate it 8/10...
watchin wif retarded moronz...
juz spoil my day...
& yah...talkin bout my dae...
...haiz...
can't she juz gimme sum...
...*space 2 breath*...
she ovanite here...
...*AGAIN*...
damnz...in need of space...
to hide my stuffz...shitz..
neva gimme any freedom...
lykz to b da...
*center of attraction*...
u juz look lyk a fool...
damn it...fuck off moron...
stop giggling & laughin lyk shitz
u sound soooo damn *FAKE*...
olwez seek center of attraction!
im not jealous...
shes juz irritates me...
...*fuckar*...
no sense of originality
she thinks shes da best...
oh GOD...
pleasssseeee...
i wan her to get married...
...*IMMEDIATELY*...
haiz...i need sum freedom...
fear surrounds me...
whenevo shes around...
i juz dun haf da feeling
she wud change...
she wud olwez b da same...
da ony sibling i love...
is my brader...
...thank god...
************
listenin to:
take a bow - madonna
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
7:35 PM
i haf been fooled...
by da galz...yah...
& i trust her ohkay...
i neva evo think abt it...
cuz its ova long tyme...
but i cried in da end...
cuz i feel so touched...
cuz they care...
itz raining...
i juz love da weather...
nozie asked me out...
few dayz back...to find things
yah...didn't noe it end up...
to be sooo surprising...
she has 2 meet her fren 1st...
@ *Swensen*...b4 went shoppin
2 find her things...
we went in...& yes...
her fren is *Zeekee*...
...hahahahar...
wads there 4 me 2 do???
i laugh lyk helllll...
cuz i was sooo shocked...
thanks 4 everything galz...
...love ya all lotzzz...
*thankz* 4 da treat @ Swensen...
*thankz* 4 da *hug me* bean bag...
(i longed to haf it)
*thanks* 4 da soccer frame wif my pic
(hahar...its soooo CUTE...really)
omg i cried...hahar...
while post tiz...
its sooo sweet...
...tiz is it...
im goin to frame it...
i juz post it on frenster
laz nite...& dey oredy done it
dat was *fast*...lolx...
den we take neoprint...
hahar...but missin sum1...
...*shrlene*...
get well soon sweetie...
im goin to miss YOU...
it was a great plan...
wonder who planned it well...
nozie's acting sooo real...
yah...thanks 4 fooling me...
seeing kee makes me laugh lots...
it has been a month...didn't mit...
1st reaction seing her...
i laugh non-stop...hahar...
all i can say...
...*THANK YOU SOOO MUCH*...
************
listenin to:
take a bow - madonna
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:52 PM
i hope things changed...
but who am i 2 change fate?
im juz nobody...
i dun haf da courage...
i juz need
i miss my home...
dun wana runaway no more
y can't we be lyk b4?
i can't stand it anymore...
but haf 2 face it afterall...
can i juz go home?
i promise 2 behave...
i won't fight wif my sis anymore
i promise not 2 hurt u dad...
i promise not 2 let u cry mom...
& i wil b ur little gal 4evo...
i go 2 sleep @ nite...
i noe its not ur fault dad...
@ least i try 2 understand...
sum pple juz not satisfied...
seing we happy as a family...
all i can say is cursed u peepz
WARNING!!!
im not runnin from home
im stayin wif my aunt...
it suxxx by da wae...
shhhh...dun tell any1...
cuz therez 4 monsta in da house!
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
1:23 AM
timetable is out...
so da whole day...
i was lyk...
stonin...sleepin...dreamin &
preparin mentally & physically
cuz skewl gona start tiz mondae!
yah i noe...
itz simply suxxxz...
2 da maxxxz...
...haiz...
fuck lah...
my aunt keepon shoutin
lyk nobodyz business...
hekz...dat boi ar...
i really wana smack him man...
he loves to make my aunt shoutz!
its damn irritatin...
i wana go out...
but tooo lazy...
& tooo tired...
haiz...wad 2 do...
juz bear wif it...
************
listenin to:
crazy - SP
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
9:25 PM
as i said i can;t sit @ home
nowadayz...duno y...lolx...
thought wana watch movie...
but...all suxx...haiz...
so shop around....
i bought a white blazer...
& a short cardigan...OMG...
think i've spent simply tooo much
haiz...im gona broke...
but i love da cardigan...hehx...
nicex...my sis saw it...
i noe she jealous...
...shitz...
i haf 2 hide it sum where...
u noe...she loves 2 take my stuffz
den we went to far east again...
cuz i wana buy dat BAG...!!!
urgh...i love it...damns...
i spent alotz...shitz...
but...who cares???
nyahahaz...
I was lyk...helooo...
wen skool gona start...
i wont haf enuff tyme...
to do da shoppin...
************
listenin to:
helena - MCR
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:29 PM
...shooootz...
i will be dead...
if i wud stay @ home...
my aunt is shoutin lyk hell
at her 4 sons...
4 makin a din & runnin abt...
while my sis...
as early as 10 she oredy @ comp!
so msg dem &...
we r lyk *no-where-2-go*...
so im juz told dem...y not we try
shop around da east side?...
since itz sundae...
confirm its gona b crowded @ Tampines...
so we headed to eastpoint...
yah i bought...
SP latest album &
Eminem encore...
wooohooo...hahar...
yah i noe...
*ketinggalan keretapi*
maybe im da laz person 2 own dem!
we had lunch...&...
sushi...hehx...
me & ming felt tempted
after seen a malay gal @ banquet
eatin Edo Sushi...damnz...
hahar...nicex...
till den...
burbuaiesz...
************
listenin to:
crush - garbage
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
10:53 PM
feel lyk wana go out...
sit @ home oso do nothing
my sis olwez use comp...
yah she ovanite til sundae...
we went far east...
urgh...i lurve da bag...
@ da basement...damnz...
itz sooo coolx...
wif da pic of da...
...*che guevera*...
da gal version...
wana catch movie but
nothing interesting...
& so we went dinner...
& headed home...
we catch *red candy*...
...&...
*pontianak harum sundal malam 2*
erm da 2nd 1
not dat scary though...
but da red candy...
okay la not bad...
itz juz da ringtone scare me off
den now i got it from my bro...
...hahar...
im off...nitex...
************
listening to:
awas - KRU
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:56 PM
feelin lost...
nowhere to go...
tryin 2 find a wae...
a wae 2 make her okay...
...but...
im not gonna be ohkay...
im not gonna be alryt...
i can't find my wae...
i can't keep it right...
am i olwez @ fault???
am i olwez put on da blame???
things r juz still b da same...
shud i...drop da tears @ nyte?
shud i...bottledup things not ryt?
y did i...keepin things inside?...
is there sum1...to hug me tight?...
call me names...
juz call me wadevo u wan...
cuz i dun care...
i've given up...
& im not goin to change...
i will olwes b da same...
...yeah...
im stink...
my hair simply SUCKZ...
im a fuckin shitz...
my *BO* damn fuckin SUXXX...
...im da...
...*big-fat-ugly-monsta*...
...AVOID ME...
if u hate me...
juz simply pretend...
u dunoe me...
be professional...
u dun haf to mix between
personal stuffz & *u noe*...
************
listenin to:
maniamedley - KRU
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
1:25 AM
sobzzz...
i wana go home...
i dun wan wakeup early
to go skewl...
i olwez LATE!...
all i wan...
is to go home...
juz lyk before...
laz mondae catch ICE AGE 2
wooohoooz...
nice show!!!
go catch it...
rate it 9/10...
i lurve sid & scrat...
...*CUTIEZ*...
met my sis...
cuz mum needs her payslip...
& we shop around...
so it was lyk...
helooo???...
since wen we shoppin together?
yah she treat me...&...
bought me tis red surf top...
yah its coolx...
hope shes changin...
not lyk b4...hmmm...
& yah tmr shes cumin...
ovanite til sundae...
wadelse???
olwez being leftout...
stonin whole 3 dayz...
haizzz...
tiz afternoon...
went IMM...shop around...
yeay i bought tiz
light - purple sweater...
which i wanted...heez...
& laz mondae got myself
tiz hot skirt & jeans...
...heex...
...*im off*...
************
listenin to:
2 - KRU
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
10:46 PM
so wen was da laz tyme...
we went to wedding?
...*10 years ago*...
muahahas...ya i was ony 10...
paz 2 days went wedding...
laz fridae havin sakei sushi
wif da twinx...hehx...
...*bloated*...
lazy to post...
burbuaiesz...
left ony 2 weekz...
...*BiG sIgHz*...
i wish u were here...
damnz...juz fuck off...
i hate you!...
nyehahas...
************
listenin to:
crush - garbage
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:46 AM
