screwup every lil thing
dat i try to do...
wad kindof world im livin?
wad kindof life im leadin?
u juz simply suxxx ..."EMY"...
dey wont noe...
dey wont understand...
feel lyk a shit?...*yeah*...
freak...lozar...
grounded...screwup...
...EmOtIoNaLlY distrupted...
...MeNtALlY retarded...
...PhYsIcAlLy obesity...
sucha fool tryin to mix wif dem
c urself in da mirror...
...& think twice...
u r not simply match wif dem
u r strange...simply strange
dey juz put on mask...
tryin to be nice...
but da fact dat...
dey detest u damn sucka
no use livin in da fake world
no use praising insincerely
da look of ur face, dizgusted me
da wae of urs, its understandable
i do understand ur acting
stop lying & acting in da drama
...juz tell me da truth...
u dun get wad i said
i hope u get wad i mean
dun ask bout my wae...&
dun ask bout my style...
u simply juz dun understand me
cant believe dat i lie
...*to myself*...
cant face da fact dat
i scared of my life
...*itz haunting me*...
im afraid of my own shadow
i lyk him but i lie 2 myself
im alone olwez & 4evo
...u've got no idea...
...read from da begginin...
...& u get wad i mean...
************
listenin to:
my paperheart - all american reject
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
4:12 PM
...i noe kindof week didn't post...
...*summary of my week*...
...da darkest hour...
...juz before da dawn...
..."MoNdAe"...
havin IB presentation...
yeah we r da 1st group prezen
alto we r da 3rd group...
...ok not bad...
can change my irritatin voice
but still scared & shaky...
...hahar...
yeah im a stage-freak...
...public-speakin freaka...
..."TuEsDaE"...
CRM test...haiz...
laz minute study...
have been slackin...
...*shitz*...
think im gonna *FAIL*...
...who cares...
...stil got oter ICA...
...hehehex...
..."WeDnEsDaE"...
ITIPJ prezentation grades release
...ermmm...not bad ar...
...acceptable...
grade doesn meet da expectation
...but itz OK 4 us...
...no further comments...
..."ThUrSdAe"...
XML ica1 release...
im shocked...hehx...
ok ar...happy wif da markz given
otw to yck mrt...
shit...saw HIM...hehx...omg
...hahar...haiz...
tiz few weekz olwez saw HIM...
...okok i drop da topic...
chill @ my aunt place...hehx
ate canadian pizza...
but da macaroni lasagnia...
...*quite suxxx*...
...not bad ar...free wad...hehx
..."FrIdAe"...
shitz...i hate 1st dae man...
haiz...u noe wad i mean...haiz
actually dun feel lyk wana cum
but...nvm juz go...
muz bear da *pain*...
we came quite early
thinkin of dizcuzin projekz
hahar...but end up havin lunch...
i really damn h8 her sia...
shes gettin irritatin & irritatin
really damn her sia...
if u wana noe who is tiz
retarded moronik shitz
u can ask me *personally*
...since *DAT* dae...
i start to hate her...DAMNZ...
...stewpid buffalo...
havin an irritatin & retarded
...*VoIcE*...
further explain @ next post...
till den we meet...c ya...
...im off...
************
listenin to:
only 1 - yellowcard
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
10:42 PM
...so here it goes...
...therez sad & happy momentz...
*...mondae & tuesdae...*
finishup ITIPJ project proposal
lyk hell...stayinup in skewl...
imagine 12 hrs neva eat...
can repay fast ryt?...haiz...
den we ate @ mac...suddenly...
group of malay boiez fight...
nah..itz juz war of werdz & pushin
...lyk duh...hahar...
*...wednesdae...*
prezen da ITIPJ thing...
yeah i sound lyk wana cry...
...okay..4get it aite...
u noe sum ppl juz dun happy
wadevo shitz we did...
...sum*tyme* sum*where*...
we really DUNO bout *it*
if not happy juz say outloud
y shout under water???
no point talkin 2 coconut tree
...hope so u get wad i mean...lolx
chill out wif da twinx @ JP
watch...*chicken little*...
OMG..itz awesome...go catch it...
he used to b called lozar or crazy...
juz b'coz of a corn...but
itz actually a spaceship parts drop'd
& so...he hopin of a new dae...
...itz nice movie...
...i giv it 8/10...
*...thurdae...*
...weheheh...went shoppin...
shop around lookin 4 stuffz
...in da end i got it...
...@ nite...haf to plan nice 1...
hopin on fridae it turns out WELL...
...very damn SCARED sia...
...ony GOD noes...
@ 12 i wish her...hehx guess wad?...
...*IM DA 1ST 2 WISH*...
(...kembang semangkuk...)
*...fridae...*
...wakeup quite early...
...PrEaPaRaTiOnZ 4 da BIG dae...
...im gettin nervous & excited...
went to pick her up @ yck...
act lyk normal...
thought she wear GOWN but im wrong!
shes beautiful on dat day...
@ mac...lie to her im mitin my fren
ahlene talk 2 her bout missin pencilcase
me & kee surprise her from behind...
shes shocked & touched...
"ey u all...dun lyk dat leh"
"ey i wan to cry oredy"
yeah dats all i remember she saes
den keepon say..."ey thankz ar"...
think bout more den 20 lah...lolx
den she opened up da 5 layered prezen
wif messagez inside...hehx...bleah...
(...she lyks da RoXy tee...)
(...da lovely fereror rocher...)
(...da cake is nicex...)
(...da card is coolx...bleah)
we lepak @ mac after ITIPJ lab
den play police & thief *our version*
...muahahahar...
we really had a great tyme...
den went FJ...
laugh lyk HELL...OMG...
*..."HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAE"...*
*..."TO AZSIMAH aka AZSIMOT"...*
*..."frenz 4evo olwez"...*
************
listenin to:
teenage dirtbag - wheatus
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
1:51 PM
juz before eternity...
God muz hate me...
maybe u shud pray 4 me
im breakin down...
& u can't save me...
...fucking hellin...
i dun wana go home...
so wads in da world...
am i suppose to do?
i screw'd up...
every lil thing i try to do
...i've born to lose...
wadevo shit i try to do...
i screw'd up evrything...
i make it such a mess...
i make it from bad 2 worse...
dun wana involve anymore...
Therez a place call heaven...
& a place call hell...
Therez a place call prison...
& a place call jail...
my house is a livin hell
searchin 4 heaven out ther'
but i've found myself a jail
my skool is a livin prison...
dun wana live here anymore...
juz need sum sweet dream...
in need of sum sweet moment...
wif a sweet person to be wif...
...NAH...sucka lyk me...
...*DREAMON EMY*...
************
listenin to:
mimpi yang sempurna - peterpan
(currently addicted to)
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
10:59 PM
