im sucha paranoia. am i? ok freak.
didn't believe dat i was actually...
breakdown lyk nobody's business.
okae n datz waz lyk mcm siek.
for a moment i juz nid to blow up sumwhere.
u noe...lyk how far u can manage ur anger
how long u bottled up everytyn...
one fine freakyn dae u nid to let it go...
all i thought was dat i could juz...
kip it save deep inside. but i was wrong.
no one evo ask. no one evo care.
nobody is freakyn bother how things goin on.
it is so damn freakyn mentally tortured.
everytyn is changyn n im so confusyn.
at least i tried...
how much i assist n how much i learnt...
no one is actually bothered to noe.
meanyn all this while im juz kaypo-in or wat?
n fightyn back isn't my type.
why should i make a tweeny lil matter...
into a big farken HU-HA...childish.
so damn freakyn unprofessional.
im ATTITUDE wat. i dunoe how to werk peh.
muthafarkacheebai.
& de world collapsed onto me.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
2:29 AM
Friday, July 25, 2008
i've found a tyme fer me to vent out
watz been bottled up deep inside
for these whole freakyn weeeeeeeekz.
if u were to ask me how am i now...
i would sae im not okae (i promise).
firstly. (werkstuffz)
i was lyk...come on lah...
experienced? pioneer? senior?
my farken arse lah...
empty vessel makes the most noise
so muthafark what u noe MORE den me...
wherelse u create a disrespetful of others
towards u wif ur damn freakyn cheetot attitude?
i realised where i stand n i noe my weaknesses
or shall i sae i noe dat im freakyn damn USELESS.
so i guess there's nothing fer u to highlight
n notified to de whole management bout
my big farken ATTITUDE towards u sia.
de sight of him juz makes me wanna REMBAT him.
mulot mcm pukeemak. kedi.
damn farken cheebai. ok im done.
expectyn of me to say u back?
i guess my mum teach me wae much better den dat.
instead, i CURSED you!
im @ werk now...doing tradesmen. haaah. -____-
i took 3 MCs this month...
my brain seemz not werkyn in proper condition.
as if those cells experiencyn crampz.
im havyn a freakyn migraine.
brain damage ever since was born.
i can't wait fer de freakyn week ends.
ouh, i hate SUNDAY!!!
secondly. (boify)
i duno watz his farken problem...
or izit me? erkkk. haiz.
i noe...im damn freakyn paranoia.
i didn't really much into it initially.
but it started after lyk we've met.
sound stewpeed aite? i noe. thanks by de wae.
fer hurtyn me. i mean. ok im dumb luhhh.
who de fark will fall easily wif a stranger aite?
okaeokae unless u're GOOD-LOOKYN luhhh.
READ-my-profile-READ. muthafarkacheebai.
hmmmmmmmmph. sucha paranoid luhhh...
someone give me novacaine pls. hmmm...
i've got over it. ok im fine now. freak!
so de morale of de story...
take ur freakyn lifetyme chattyn wif others.
DUN EVO give ur no. dat damn freakyn easily.
unless u've chat lyk
| this LONG period of tyme |
instead of
| this long ony |
erkkk. ok i hope ew get wat i mean.
ouh, how i hate touch n go losers.
& to my surpise...
this freakyn mornyn i received a msg
from this sicko whom i've deleted.
i questioned him...
& im so freakyn glad dat he noes
wat i've done.
gosh! STOP thinkyn usyn ur DICK can? cheetot!
thirdly. (galfy)
i met kitty n ami. :]
lyk 521259867323587645135475845314348765 sec
since we laz met.
actually i met kat for GUYLIAN chocz.
i ordered 2 boxes n i eat dem all by myself.
actually not all. i caught sum1 took one. haaah
moz probably itz my mum luh kan. lolx.
we catch WEDDYN DAZE. it was funneh luh sia. :]
...* highly recommended *...
we had a great chat & dinner @ banquet.
mit up again plsplsplsplspls
& seoul garden wif de twinx...SOON. weee.
& i thought...
i could change my life.
but i was wrong.
im sucha loser.
*ParanoidGal* \m/
sucha lonely dae...
& itz mine...
de moz loneliez dae of my life...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
1:38 AM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
sucha lonely dae...
& itz mine...
de moz loneliest dae of my life
sucha lonely dae...
shud be banned...
itz a dae dat i can't stand
de moz loneliest dae of my life
de moz loneliest dae of my life
sucha lonely dae...
shudn't exist...
itz a dae dat i'll neva miss
sucha lonely dae...
& itz mine...
de moz loneliest dae of my life
& if u go...
i wanna go wif u...
& if u die...
i wanna die wif u...
take ur hand...
& walk away...
de moz loneliest dae of my life...
de moz loneliest dae of my life...
de moz loneliest dae of my life...
sucha lonely dae...
& itz mine...
itz a dae dat im glad i survived.
Lonely Day - System Of A Down.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
4:15 PM
Friday, July 18, 2008
if u, if u cud return,
dun let it burn, dun let it fade.
im sure im not being rude,
but itz juz ur attitude,
itz tearyn me apart,
itz ruining everytyn.
i swore, i swore i wud be true,
& honey, so did u.
So y were u holdyn her hand?
is dat de wae we stand?
were u lying ol'de tyme?
as it juz a game to u?
but im in so deep.
u noe im sucha fool fer u.
u got me wrapped around ur finger,
do u haf to let it linger?
do u haf to, do you have to,
do u haf to let it linger?
oh, i thought de world of u.
i thought notyn cud go wrong,
but i was wrong. i was wrong.
if u, if u cud get by, trying not to lie,
things wudn't be so confused
& i wudn't feel so used,
but u olwez really knew,
i juz wanna be wif u.
& im in so deep.
u noe im sucha fool fer u.
u got me wrapped around ur finger,
do u haf to let it linger?
do u haf to, do u haf to,
do u haf to let it linger?
Linger(Acoustic) - The Cranberries.
& im sucha paranoia.
ouh-mai-gawd-who-doesn't-luh-kan
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
9:15 PM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
my OFF's been seperated. ouh gosh penat seh.
to compare ETM n STM, i wud mozly preferred ETM.
i've got all stressed-kanchyong-freakingly-paranoyd
placed nx to thiz holy-freakynly-man. mcm siek.
& im sooo freakynly pissed OFF!
being DUMB is just the best way.
it started with a simple get-2-noe-&-otp convo.
as if we've known fer yrs or so...
ok dat is so freakynly lame luh kan.
from sec-2-min-2-hrs. wakeup *haywire* on nx mornyn
so we decided to mit up.
askyn around fer a better spot, kental sak aku.
haha...how freak i can be sia. LOLX.
watchyn muvee is not dat rubbish though... hello?
can't think of any...so im juz go wif de flow...
*The Stranger* was planned.
& im late...fer 15 mins. haaah. -____-
my 1st reaction was...
*oh-mai-gawd-u-r-so-freakyn-tall-luh-sia*
den took bus headed to downtown.
859 is a sauna tub while 39 is a drunken driver.
nak break tak kasi warnyn sia. driver bodoh. :X
banquet is so unlimited @ white sand. borink! haaah.
de'prata n wantan mee was not dat bad.
then walked to downtown.
lyk palapantat(he said) it was @ 7plus de nx tymeslot.
we watched hellboy instead. haaah. :|
it looks lyk ol'tyme favrut incredible hulk.
did i mention hulk? wooopppz. :X
nicex muvee though wif de cosy seats.
& nuada reminds me of LOTR charactar.
lyk usual, my arse numbs. hate it luh sia. ok lame.
i was thinkyn to cancel bowlyng.
so we can have lyk more tyme or sumtyn.
but too bad coz his fren joined in.
& they juz go ahead w/o me.
while me...watchyn dem n hyper makcik maen. haha.
i thought of juz give it a shot, but paiseh luh sia
de laz tyme i played it was 6yrs back. ok dat was LONG.
then we went back home.
& FUCK! tomorrow's mornyn shift.
************
listenyn to:
Dikalaku Keseorangan - Exist
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
11:59 PM
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
i've been abandonyn my blog.
everytyme i wana post sumtyn...
my mind juz went totally BLANK.
it's been a week ++ ...
& life's not been much better.
i've been placed @ STM...
a day after my leave's over...
i was loike...WTH la kan...
2 freakyn days...thank GOD not much cases.
maybe...it was juz my lucky daez. [:
it isn't a matter of a stressness...meanyn,
as in the ability to cope pressurize werk...
it's called MENTALLY TORTURED to be precised.
there's a limit to someone's patience.
& someone pls educate those freakz...
for the terms & definitions of ESSENTIAL.
living in fear n anger environment...
i duno how much longer i could manage...
on such freakyn werkload n werkflow.
life's simply too short to get pissed off
all de tyme...
enuff of werk stuff & so.
it makes me more PARANOIC.
im huntyn fer jobz, definitely.
& all calls received are from the
Financial Management Department.
hello? do i look n sound lyk a freakyn
financial consultant/advisory to ew?
oh-my-gawd-luh-kan.
im juz wana some clean n nice job.
where ur werk/effort is been greatly appreciated.
though de werkflow nids to cope under pressure...
obviously it won't consists of humiliation ryt?
ouh well, im hoping of gettyn a GOOD job soon.
educatedly intelligent but electrically n sanitarily moron.
what's de use of havyn the basic qualifications
wherelse ew dun have the basic requirement? cheetot!
love...
ew dun have to force urself to fall in it.
dun say it if u dun really mean it.
it comes from the heart n it makes ew krazy.
sumtymes i think, being single is much better
then havyn boifren coz i've got all de freedom
i ever wanted. haaah. contented.
came across this frenster comment...
given by nirahBella to kittykat.
it touches my heart.
Suatu hari,
CINTA & KAWAN sedang berjalan-jalan di kampung.
Tiba-tiba,
CINTA jatuh di dalam telaga.
kenapa ?
Kerana CINTA itu buta,
Lalu KAWAN pun terjun ke dalam telaga.
kenapa ?
Kerana KAWAN akan buat apa saja demi CINTA.
Di dalam telaga CINTA hilang.
kenapa ?
Kerana CINTA itu halus dan mudah hilang...
kalau tidak dijaga...
apatah lagi di dalam telaga yang gelap.
Walaupun gelap, KAWAN tetap mencari CINTA.
kenapa ?
Kerana KAWAN itu sejati dan akan kekal sebagai KAWAN.
KAWAN tetap berharga, bernilai dan dikasihi !
tired with my life now.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
4:52 PM
