got easily emo lately. yeah...WTF.
an ignorance, makes me wonder...
never really expected...
been treated in such a way...
from someone whom i adore as a fren/sista.
i don't really actually know...
where i've gone wrong...
or did i say sumtyn wrong...
or you juz wana AVOID me or sumtyn.
or pretendyn we duno each other.
well...by all you means. apape luh.
ouch, it hurtz. it makes me cried a lil.
thanks.
only then i realised...
im living on my own...
im standing alone...
& no one is actually bother.
it's only when im DEAD...
then they do really realised...
my existence &...
i was used to be called a friend.
itz too late.
itz sad wen pple u noe become pple u knew.
wen u can walk ryt past someone...
lyk they were never a part of ur life.
how u used to be able to talk for hours
& now u can barely look at them.
im havyn 3 nytes 2 days off...
followed by another 2 nytes 2 days off...
before my leaves started.
wanted to cancel it but den its been approved.
so, juz go ahead with it...
givyn myself sumtyme to breath...
after 7 months of hell...
i was wonderyn WTH stuck myself at there.
never ever felt been appreciated...
neither do i get any compliments.
& wat i received was a typical discrimination.
ouh thanks to those who REALLY have de FAITH
on me from the very first day of mine.
your encouragement & teachings...
are greatly much appreciated. [:
thank you.
all i felt is freakingly USELESS.
ouh, this isn't what i learnt in skewl.
im sorry...i mean...4 being DUMB n USELESS.
& now im scared of doing OT.
im not a very good galfren.
sorry if i were to hurt you.
i juz can't cheat my feelings.
i've tried my best to be nice.
face de reality & get de facts ryt.
I'M NOT YOUR FREAKYN GALFREN.face it.
his daily sms-es...makes me feel...
BAD n GUILTY for not replyn them.
i've rejected lyk 4-5 dude sumtyn lidat...
itz not dat im scared of guys or havyn r'ship.
im NOT ready...datz all.
as i watched de'star...shinyn brightly.
deep inside itz feelyn lonely.
for once...
make me smile again...
************
listenyn to:
pocketful of sunshine - natasha bedingfield
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
3:39 AM
Monday, June 23, 2008
lotsa things runnyn through my mind.
dun feel lyk wana talk about it.
my blog seems DEAD.
juz lyk my LIFE.
damn freakyn BORINK.
ouh, i miss my past.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
1:45 PM
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Happy 19th Burpdae to Shahidah aka AmiDumDum69™.
Semoga Panjang Umor,Murah Rezeki, jady anak solehah.
&&& nak kepak kebing kebing...
dun ferget INVITE Pg™ tao tao. :]
AMIN.
Tagged by KittyKat...
Rules & Regulations of this quiz is ...
a) people who have been tagged must write their answers on their
blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question
formulated by themselves.
b) tag 6 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.
These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag
the person whom they were tagged by.
Continue this game by sending it to other people.
Q : If your lover betrayed you, what would be your reaction?
A : Breakdown & cry. Won't utter any werd.
Q : If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
A : 1) Web Designer 2) Mr ParanoidGuy 3) Good Health &...
Q : Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
A : erkkk. huh?
Q : Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
A : guess so. heh.
Q : Would you change yourself for the person you love?
A : nope & never.
Q : Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
A : both.
Q : How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
A : still waityn, waityn... & still waityn.
Q : If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
A : ok next...
Q : Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
A : typical minah pissed me off.
Q : Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
A : yeah.
Q : Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
A : it takes tyme, after a while i realised i managed to.
Q : Who are currently most important people to you?
A : my mum & my brader & REAL frenz.
Q : Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
A : yeah.
Q : What's the ideal perfect relationship to you?
A : respect, understandyng, trustworthy, humorous, give&take, forgive&forget.
Q : Are you happy with your life?
A : certain part.
Q : Would you give all in a relationship?
A : ermmmmm. depends.
Q : If you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
the lousiest one?
OR
the better one?
A : The better one.
Q : What type of friends do you like?
A : friends who are always there for you.
Q : Do you often wish there was something you could change?
A : ouh how i wish i could.
Q : What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
A : his hairstyle, really. hehx.
6 people I tagged :
nozie.
nirahBella.
angelic irah.
gurl85.
ninola.
opppz. 5 only i can get. :X
& so im livin in my own WORLD.
im ignoryn you. SORRY.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
12:00 AM
Monday, June 09, 2008
been paid to get scolded/humiliated...
infront of the pple that u know...
it's not worth it even a single seposen...
simply priceless...
how sarcastic can he be in sucha way?
i mean spit those hurtful werds...
to the one who is much MORE experienced
than you who are just took over the
ouh-so-called-the-freakingly-organisation?
STOP THINKYN & REACT USYN YOUR DICK BOOTOH!
ouh well...guess what?
would rather be jobless/unemployed than werkyn
in sucha freakingly hell environment.
we treat each other as a HUMAN not ANIMAL!
& im draggyn myself everydae.
05th june...thurs.
werkplace is sucha chaotic.
was on de mornyn shift...
& watie is such a nice buddy to giler wif,
ever since nami been transferred to CPG.
yesterday...thong shoppyn wif watie.
it was fun luh seh. haha. aku giler! LOL.
06/07/08th june...fri/sat/sun.
3 days straight doing tradesmen. i was lyk...
ouh-shyt-how-i-hate-answeryn-stm-calls.
at least im tryin my best to understand them.
i mean...their reports with their accent.
ouh-my-gawd-kill-me-pwease. hmmmmmmmmmm.
etm not so bad i should sae, i supposed.
i hate it when they start buggyn me...
to be push to another station...soon or later.
hello??? one tyme after another luh sey.
or at least officially transfer me...
after i've given my tender or sumtyn. LOLX.
week ends werkyn tradesmen with KAK JU...
it was loike NON-STOP laughyn our ass off sia.
in de mornyn ony we 2 f/t runnyn de call ctr.
it was hectic/tired/hungry/sleepy/irritated
on de same tyme LOL/fun/enjoy/giler/kekek-ing.
klaka luh kak jut ang no kio ni. haha.
week ends really havyn shortage of ppl.
the funny part was...both days r de same pple...
who hands-over de followyn shift. haha.
& there-it-goes-my-sickenyn-yet-fun-weekends.
amazingly, straight 3 days i didn't ON my lappy.
Laz nyte when i turned it ON, kecho sia aku.
keyboard suddenly disfunction...haha.
THANKS Kitty n Kitty'Hubby assistyn me.
okae la okae la. laksa 2 mangkok. [:
grot20:
hi
ParanoidGal:
he
ParanoidGal:
saa
grot20:
hesaap?
grot20:
huh
grot20:
haha
ParanoidGal:
errr
ParanoidGal:
eybrd d1sfunt10n
ParanoidGal:
brb
grot20:
its ok
like UFCK kan???
it supposed to be hie & sala
aiseymen. i was totally paiseh sia.
once my keyboard funtion back to normal,
i told him abt EVERYTYN & he laugh lyk hell
mcm siak. :X
things gettyn COMPLICATED.
i can't even think.
let me breath...
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
4:45 PM
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
he's being so DIFFICULT.
DOESN'T freakyn understand me at all.
im comin clean...REALLY CLEAN.
it was all just words.
it's easier to say then do.
all guys are de same.
okae maybe im wrong.
not all guys are de same. but they are.
i juz did it a while ago. i TRIED. to AVOID.
they juz dun freakyn understand...
de definition of NO n DON'T WANT.
SERIOUSLY im fuckyn TIRED luh siak.
it means notyn at all. fellynless.
TOTALLY lost my faith.
& now...i regret on what i've done.
im being stewpeed or what?
who de fark on earth will think of that?
guys n their sweet talks/werds/phrase/sentence.
oh mai gawd. im sucha paranoia.
ouh pls stop makyn me cry.
i dun wana fall in pieces.
fuck! i juz can't stop these tears fallyn.
leave me alone.
juz fuckyn leave me alone, all by myself.
i dun need anyone. go away plz.
************
satu bintang - antique.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
1:45 AM
Monday, June 02, 2008
yesterdae.
had dinner @ dhobby ghaut fish n co.
with de'giler Sham.Teja.Azza.
i ordered de new york fish n chip.
n we started with eh-how-life-goes-on.
lol-yn.bitch-yn.eyeWash-yn.
entertained from de acoustic performance
by ouh-dat-hawt-dude or duno-wadevo-his-name-is.
it was AwEsOme man...alternative PunkRawk.
nicex voice...you made my day man. :]
b4 we left de place, requested a sonk...
here w/o you by him.
& we took some pix before seperated.
yeah n rush to werk.
todae.
how pathetic life can be?
anjing nak mkn pon, mknn dier bersih.
too hurt till i breakdown n cry.
Mr F: Elo ape khabar?
baik sihat. still breathin. lolx. u?
Mr F: Qaha gitu2 jugak u da mamam?
blom tunggu u antakan. jk je. lom baru bngn. abeh u?
Mr F: Lum jugak wt u doin nw?
golek kat katil tunggu tyme nk mandi.
Mr F: Haha ok
u kat ne?
Mr F: Umah so hws life?
still de same. no diff.
Mr F: Haha tk carik bf?
takla nga tunggu bf carik me haha
Mr F: U avail ke??
saye sgl la awak.
Mr F: Ada chance,
haha.
Mr F: Y ketawe?
takde pape. ade chance knape nga carik gf ke?
Mr F: Boleh di kate kn hehe
oh shit. im askyn directly or wat? lolx
Mr F: Malu ke? Hehe
uikkk haha malu? tk. paisey je -___-
ok nk mandi. bye.
lyk wat she used to say.
jgn terlalu mengharapkan sgt.
fuck! ku da penat luh seh.
************
listenyn to:
satu bintang - antique
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
5:48 AM
