why is it so HARD?
i thought it was easy.
never knew it could turn out this way.
...* un-EXPECTEDLY *...
i am sooo pharkin paranoid!
i think they already forget about me...
how sad life could be?...
should i be sad over this?...
like everyone busy with their own life!
it keeps on haunting me...
why i should be punished this way?...
why do all G00D things come to an END?
it's FREAKING!
i did dream about him sia!
feeling MORE paranoid...damns...
okayz MAYBE i've been thinking too much.
...* dreams-lyk-no-one-else-had *...
it really freak me out!
4evo 21...
do i look lyk 20s???
i still feels that im 18 or sumtyn.
...* young-at-hearts *...
bloodyhell! another freakin news...
most of my sec clique has married...
& even already have lil tots...
how freakin is that???...
i don't dare to be prepared...
...* mentally & physically *...
am i too afraid of this freakin life?
is everything goin to be fine?
don't really have the confidence in me.
imagine both of them like...gone 4evo...
i would be the most sad person on EARTH!
sleepless nytez & swollen eyez...
life would be even more
*PER-TEAR-THICK*...
& everyone is gona pointing fingers @ me.
& push all matters to me...
as if i'm the one who creates them...
then you define me what life is.
on that moment...i will *BREAK DOWN*
unless i born to be wealthy...
i'm trying not to care really much
...* over-un-IMPORTANT-matters *...
but it olwez haunting me...
...* everywhere & everytyme *...
juz what's the pharkin wrong being
...* S-I-N-G-L-E *...???
i got the freedom all i want...
no one is controllin me...
no reports to make everyday...
no SMS cents to be wasted over...
...* childish-issues *...
like im dying lidat over thiz matters.
no boi/gal lyk can die lidat...
grow up la pple!...
got better things to think about...
like...like...like........
go figure out yourself...
i've got better things to think besides...
...* THIS matter *...
do i sound so *heartbroken*...
or is it more like *lost faith*...?
eeew -.- i don't wanna think about IT.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
5:15 AM
