got easily emo lately. yeah...WTF.
an ignorance, makes me wonder...
never really expected...
been treated in such a way...
from someone whom i adore as a fren/sista.
i don't really actually know...
where i've gone wrong...
or did i say sumtyn wrong...
or you juz wana AVOID me or sumtyn.
or pretendyn we duno each other.
well...by all you means. apape luh.
ouch, it hurtz. it makes me cried a lil.
thanks.
only then i realised...
im living on my own...
im standing alone...
& no one is actually bother.
it's only when im DEAD...
then they do really realised...
my existence &...
i was used to be called a friend.
itz too late.
itz sad wen pple u noe become pple u knew.
wen u can walk ryt past someone...
lyk they were never a part of ur life.
how u used to be able to talk for hours
& now u can barely look at them.
im havyn 3 nytes 2 days off...
followed by another 2 nytes 2 days off...
before my leaves started.
wanted to cancel it but den its been approved.
so, juz go ahead with it...
givyn myself sumtyme to breath...
after 7 months of hell...
i was wonderyn WTH stuck myself at there.
never ever felt been appreciated...
neither do i get any compliments.
& wat i received was a typical discrimination.
ouh thanks to those who REALLY have de FAITH
on me from the very first day of mine.
your encouragement & teachings...
are greatly much appreciated. [:
thank you.
all i felt is freakingly USELESS.
ouh, this isn't what i learnt in skewl.
im sorry...i mean...4 being DUMB n USELESS.
& now im scared of doing OT.
im not a very good galfren.
sorry if i were to hurt you.
i juz can't cheat my feelings.
i've tried my best to be nice.
face de reality & get de facts ryt.
I'M NOT YOUR FREAKYN GALFREN.face it.
his daily sms-es...makes me feel...
BAD n GUILTY for not replyn them.
i've rejected lyk 4-5 dude sumtyn lidat...
itz not dat im scared of guys or havyn r'ship.
im NOT ready...datz all.
as i watched de'star...shinyn brightly.
deep inside itz feelyn lonely.
for once...
make me smile again...
************
listenyn to:
pocketful of sunshine - natasha bedingfield
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
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