feelz kind of a weebit pissed off
when im wana update sumtyn.
lotsa stuffz ryt in my freakyn head...
haaah freak.
firstly.
it took me 3 freakyn days to think.
& in de end...i rejected de offer.
yeah i noe... WHY?
de reason mainly becoz...
1) im lookyn fer an IT/Design related job.
2) dun wana make myself blinded wif figures.
3) itz kind of secluded.
4) i've forgotten my accounts.
5) im serious of what im going to be.
im savyn up to take some short design course.
u c, i do have de programmin skills...which urm
i nid to errr flip thru again those lecture notez.
ouh well n design course may sound interestyn aite?
those multimedia stuffz.flash,dreamweaver,photoshop
n blablabla...n whatsoever datz related to it.
but...stay a'lil bit longer...lyk til end of de yr
wud nid much GREAT patience n mental preparations.
haiz. an achievement really does need sacrificies.
call me DUMB,STEWPID,MORON
wadevo u can to shout @ me
of rejectyn de offer n continue stayin here.
i just...dun wana repeat de same ol'mistakes again.
everytyn/anytyn happens for a reason.
i guess im not making de wrong decision...
here or there, basically they're all de same.
went thru lotsa stuffz...
i guess being DUMB is juz de perfect attitude. haha.
secondly.
i need to stop with all those hopes n faiths.
im imperfect. my weaknesses makes me horrigible.
haaah. some ppl think they're juz merely sensitive.
i dun give a farken damn but it really hurtz.
he said im cheerful. do i? i wana laugh luh...
i've juz cheated myself.
make myself lookz n feelz good.
but actually de fact dat i am not.
itz lyk livyn in de fake world.
watz de point? i wana to put it to an end.
dun waste ur freakyn fucken tyme boi.
stranger to myself.
ouh juz another babble,
MyssPg. \m/
5:34 AM
